posted on Oct, 4 2005 @ 10:56 PM
Now, let me start by saying I'm NOT going to be one of those people saying "Now that I look at it, I really miss highschool and wish I was back.".
For the most part, I'm extremely happy to be rid of that burden, but there are some things that are really sucking right now.
It seems like I suddenly have almost zero friends! Please, if anyone else here can share a similar feeling, speak up! It seems like in High-school,
I had plenty of friends! I always had something to do on the weekends, even though I don't drink or party. I had a lot of school friends, and a
group of like 7 or 8 best friends that I would hang out with in rotation. Now, I'm down to like 3 friends that I can hang out with! One of which I
don't hang out with often, and the other one I don't even like hanging out with that much! And my best friend is gone. I really miss him (Not to
sound to girly). If anyone remembers my previous threads, he was the foreign exchange student from Brazil. For some reason, we just got along REALLY
well and became great friends. I even went to his house for 2 weeks in Brazil when he had to go back! One of my other best friends moved to Indiana,
and another one I can't stand anymore. Now it seems like I'm always either at school waiting to get home, at work waiting to get home, or at home
bored to death and dreading leaving for school or work soon! To make it worse, my own older brother can't even stand me anymore haha. Normally he
wouldn't be in my rant, but just now he did something that really pissed me off... He's lucky I'm a nice guy that respects him enough to not hit
him or anything, cause I'm quite a bit bigger than him. Why does he think it's ok to just completely ignore me!?
Man... I can't believe that, looking back on it, the last part of senior year was probably the best time on my life. It was so obvious! Everyone
told me that would happen, I was prepared for it, and I STILL didn't see it coming! I guess a lot of this can be contributed to everything hitting
me at once... When I look back, everything was so great at that time. School was almost out, I didn't have to go to work, yet I still had plenty of
money left over from my old job. I had my best friend, and we could go dirtbike riding all the time. I was going on the vacation of a lifetime in a
matter of weeks, followed by another vacation to Catalina and then more summer... Yeah, that time of my life ruled. Then all of a sudden,
WHAM!. I've got school, work, nothing coming up (Other than a cool concert and the holiday season), and very few friends to hang out with on
my spare time...
I know I have it pretty good even right now... I'm not one of those people who thinks that my life sucks or anything, there are plenty of people out
there who have it worse than me. But I'm entitled to vent about the bad things when I'm feeling down, right!?
And I'm familiar with the whole "Growing up" thing, so don't give me the "It's all part of getting older" thing.
Anybody make it through?