posted on Sep, 27 2005 @ 11:26 PM
I can't quite remember if I posted about this girl before. It happened around february, if anyone cares to search for it. Anyway, she's back again
and I'm kinda stressed out about this. Let me start from the very beginning.
After I quit my last job in february, I said my goodbyes to everyone who worked there. I exchanged numbers with a few people, one of them being a
pretty attractive girl who was a manager. About a week after I quit, I got a text message from her wanting to "hang out". Well after about 2 weeks
of "Are we going out or not?" deliberation, it was basically confirmed that we were a couple. It was just then that a bunch of stuff went wrong.
She stopped calling for a week. I tried calling her, but got no results. Finally, she text-messaged me (That's kind of her thing) telling me that
her phone was broken and stuff. Anyway, I forgave her and we agreed to hang out. Then she disappeared for 2 weeks! She finally called me saying
that she was on a cruise... It was at that point when I finally just gave up and let the whole the phaze out. See, we were never "officially" a
couple, meaning I hadn't officially asked her out, and we hadn't kissed or anything yet. For that reason, we didn't need an official break up. I
thought it was over. We've kept in contact over the past 6 or 7 months, but haven't gone out again.
Then the other day I saw her at the theatre (where she works). We talked for a while, and kinda agreed to hang out sometime. She text messaged me
the next day (yesterday), and said the normal "Hi how are you" etc. Then all of a sudden, she came right out and said "Whatever happened to us
dating?"... I replied, basically saying that I was kinda wondering the same thing. So she asked "What should we do about that?" (In a sarcastic
way. It's obvious where this was going). And I agreed that we'd go out for coffee or something again. And this is the point we're at right
now... The problem? Let me explain.
I know it sound like typical teenage drama, and I guess it is. But this is the place for "relationships", so I doubt you're still reading this if
you're not at least somewhat interested. See, she seems like a great person. She's pretty. She's a Christian like me, and also agrees with me
about waiting for sex until you're married. She doesn't drink, just like me.. She doesn't smoke. All around, she's a good person! But I
just....can't see myself with her. We just don't seem compatible as far as dating goes. And to be honest, although I'm not bad looking (Judge for
yourself...I've posted my picture somewhere on BTS if you really care), but I'm really inexperienced. This pretty much stems from the fact that
I'm not seeking sex, thereby negating basically the whole point to dating (As far as people my age are concerned). And from what I've heard,
although she's a virgin, she's pretty experienced in the dating field. And I've always said that the ideal woman would be someone that I could
just hang out with, and it wouldn't be awkward or anything at all. Someone who you could just "chill" with and be happy. I really can't imagine
sitting down and discussing politics with her (She's more of the cheer-leader type), let alone the Misfits with whom I'm obsessed! (Most people get
turned away from the Misfits because don't understand them and think they're Satan worshippers or something, not to mention a Christian!) I just
have that uncomfortable *Let me out!* feeling already, although I know she's a good person. And I was never really actively "persuing" in the
first place. I kinda only wanted a girlfriend if it just sort of happened naturally. Like we were friend, I liked them and they liked me... Like I
said, someone who I could just chill with. I dunno... Argh, devil thy name is woman!
Sorry if I bored you to death, or wasted your time . Any replies or advice would be appreciated.