Ok Hi All I'm sorry for just barging in on this side from the conspiracies over at ATS, but I need some seriously good advice, that has no emotional
attachment to one side or the other.
Ok brief history, My other half and I have been together almost 4 years, it'll be 4 april 5th. We have been through the wringer, we got pregnant at
4 months, are surviving terrible 2s(our daughter will be 3 in April) My mom died last year, he was off of work for a year and we had to take care of
my mom via moving up to philly PA from West VA, Like we don't have enough crap on the plate.
I was left a substantial amount of money, and after paying off rent his car, my car, and various other expenses, all the rent, daycare,groceries,
gas, electric, and 10 grand in new musical equipment for him, I blew through the whole lot in 6 months. After all the stuff he put me through, IE not
working, having to hire a daycare center because he was too lazy to watch the baby, so I could do something as simple as shop, I finally got fed up.
I dumped him but he still lived in this house, we tried to stay as normal as parents for our daughters sake, I started seeing someone, and only told
him I had a one night stand-to save arguments, but it went alot deeper, and I wound up falling hard for this guy.I then told him that I was going to
be with someone else, but according to him we were still together the whole time, so he took it as cheating. One night he approaches me with every
intimate detail of my affair, so I came clean, couldn't figure out how he did it but I figured someone told.
Turns out while I was cleaning out junk files from my harddrive, I found a few .xsl files I couldnt access, mind you its my computer, Im a web
designer. There were about 500 of them, I couldnt understand what was bogging down my system, turns out he had installed Stealth Keylogger onto my
system, and had recorded every single email, IM and password I have ever owned, so needless to say I reinstalled the software which is undetectable(
so I never knew it was there) and reset the password, also have all the logs now set to go to my email box.
So I went sniffing, didn't find anything other than, he was having his friends wife spy on me when I went to Las vegas, the end of August, and that
someone I trust he calls the truth fairy and has sent him my emails that I sent them.(he had a draft in his email, but no addressee amongst various
other things. What the F do I do? Im really ticked that he's STILL spying on me, after everything has now been back to normal for like 2 months, I
have been out of the house 3 times other than taking my daughter for a walk in the past month, heck, last sunday he reproposed to me.
Now I am really sickened by the fact that he's been spying on me, and reading my emails the whole while, Im not doing anything wrong anymore, but now
it just feels like Im being violated, Do I have the right to be mad? I want to tell him to go f off.
Another part of me wants to post copies of all the emails he had all over the desktop sowhen he wakes up for work he realizes he really mde me mad,
Soor y for Ranting, I can't sleep, I'm fuming, shaking , and nauseos, all in the same breath.
[edit on 9/24/2005 by denial28] PS I fixed it is that better?
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