Hi Iconoclast...a number of questions/thoughts there, I will endeavour to answer them as best I can...
...let me see if I have this right. You have had experiences or memories of being with aliens, some of which you felt were more human.
Yes...and No. Or maybe I'm misunderstanding the question...anyway: Some experiences had Humans involved. The humans were often just operating as
observers...or maybe also seemed to possess some level of 'authority' in what was happening. Like 'over-sees' of what was being done. Also...some
experiences included 'beings' that on the surface appeared human, yet 'felt' non-human. Their bodies were indeed human...but their bodies seemed
more like a shell, a camoflage of sorts...perhaps to facilitate what was being done, perhaps their 'true form' would have been way too much to
handle, I really don't know. Now...I don't know if anyone else will understand this...but perhaps someone has seen someone, caught someones eye on
the street...and just seen, just KNOWN, that those eyes looking back at you were not human at all. Similar to that...
The ones that seemed more human, you also felt inflicted more pain or discomfort. The experiences you had were not physical, atleast you
don't believe they were.
Yes...the majority of experiences involving human collaberation were negative. There were those that weren't negative as such. Might mention them
some other time.
Do you have any psychic abilities or able to move objects anything like that? Maybe a illness or accident when you were younger? Are you or
any members of your family part of the military?
I would not say anything I may do, or possess, is in any way special. Sorry, but the whole concept of 'psychic ability' just doesn't sit
comfortably...seems many who claim such are viewed (or wish to be viewed) as somehow special...that is not the case with me.
But: As a child I saw things others didn't...spirits and the like. I could feel them, track them, sense purpose from them. At the time my mother was
part of a group who would help cleanse 'entities' from areas or people...so this was nothing overly concerning for me or my family...nor my culture.
This 'ability' grew through to the onset of puberty where it went ballistic, and became too overwhelming to deal with, so I shut it out. Nowadays
however I can deal with more...I still sense, but very rarely see. However my sense of 'entities' is such that for instance I may be able to
pin-point where an entity is, if that entity was once human or not, gender, age and appearance prior to their demise etc. Its like an image in my
head...a gut feeling. I also sometimes know things before someone tells me. Maybe its a sense of 'intuition'. Examples are: Knowing my friends
partner was pregnant, before either of them told me...and they had only just found out that day too. Last week an ex-client of mine committed
suicide...I knew that before one of my work colleagues told me. Also seem to be able to 'sense' peoples emotions, which works wonders in this job
'read' them so to speak. There are also other little 'things' as well. Unable to move objects...though things sometimes stop working or break if
I'm angry/emotionally overloaded. If anything, I probably get this from my mother...though my fathers lineage also contains interesting people. I
come from a small country, as such, yes I have members of my extended family in the Military. My brother is also ex-Military (Navy).
The mind is powerful. Have you read the superman mind control experiment? Unbelievable
I'll have to look into that. I have read a few accounts of people being suggested certain things are happening to them, and they manifest the effects
of those things. The mind is indeed a very powerful tool. I've seen people do amazing things physically, simply because they believed they could.
I know talking about these experiences can lead to new ones. Do you find this to be true?
I am unsure if I understand your question here...but one of the reasons I may say things, but hide finer details, is sometimes things happen if I just
outright say everything.
Did you have more experiences as a child or as an adult? Are experiences becoming more frequent over the years? How about any sounds coming
before or during an experience?
Probably more as a child. However, experiences started again in my late teens, early twenties. Now they are reasonably rare. Dreams however can
contain messages...and dreams are what I find to be increasing more over the years...as if there is an urgency to them.
Sounds is interesting. I can't really recall sounds before any experiences...its almost like my memories of any experiences don't seem to have a
'beginning' to them as such, none that I can recall...what I can recall is almost like its 'midway' through an experience. But sound does have a
part to play. There is a sound that seems to affect me deeply, it chills me for some unexplained reason...and thats the sound of Street Cleaner
trucks...those trucks that cruise up city streets, with large vaccums and spinning 'brooms' cleaning the streets. The sound some of them make...the
high pitched whine of the 'broom' motors combined with a loss bassy resonance of the vaccums...that freaks me out. Now...I'm a big guy, a strong
guy, I've seen and dealt with a whole lot in life, so there is little in this world that scares me...but this sound does. Somehow I think its
*editted to add more info on the sound issue* The sound of those Trucks still freaks me a little, but I can bear it more now...maybe because I have
heard them more often...slightly de-sensitised perhaps. But...to highlight how much effect the sound used to have: I grew up in a small town, as such
we didn't have any of them large trucks, heck, we were privelaged to have streets
When I moved to a city I first became exposed to them. I was
walking down a city street one day and heard one, heard that sound...and it chilled me, like fully stopped me in my tracks, frozen with
anxiety/fear...all I knew was I had to hide, had to get away from it. So...as funny/sad as this may sound, I ducked into the doorway of a shop and
sorta stood hard up against the wall...peering out at this truck, watching it as it went past. I stayed 'hidden' until this truck had long gone.
Afterwards I couldn't believe such a thing would have such an effect, thought I was going nuts or something. There were also occasions where one of
these trucks would be cleaning the streets in front of my house...and I would kinda duck down in my chair if I was in the lounge (lounge window
overlooked the street) so as not to be seen or something...it was wierd in the extreme.
[Edited on 8-9-2003 by alien]