Very well said. I agree with a lot of it. I think the best thing to do is keep an open mind while at the same time being sceptical of those who would
deceive others and themselves.
I had a powerful dream once where I was interrogated and asked the following question...
Do you believe?
I tell you honestly it was the hardest thing I have ever been asked and one of the most life-altering experiences ever.
The dream itself is too complex and powerful to go into in this thread, but the question was asked to me by a being or a collective of beings that I
never saw or physically heard. I just felt the voice floating inside my head, probing for a response that seemed (at the time) very important. I must
say that I've thought that it could have been myself in the dream asking myself a question. Talk about your schizophrenic dreams! But for many
reasons that again are too complex to go into here, I choose to think it was something/someone else – a greater power if you will - asking me.
As a child I was brought up in a very religious home. I myself am not religious and have not been for many years, but conditioning kicked in (as it
does) and my automatic response after the dream was that it must have been a God or even Gods as I felt it was more than one – a collective if you
will. There was something about the authority of it, the importance and the necessity to ask things of me that made it feel that it wasn't just a
It also seemed that of all the questions in the universe, the one that was asked was the hardest one for me to answer.
Had 'they' asked 'Do you love?' That would have been easy. Are you loyal? Are you honest? Are you selfish? Have you helped those in need? All
again, much easier to answer, but those questions were never asked.
‘Do you believe' bothered me as I think it was posed because it required that extra leap that I am often unwilling to take. In essence 'it' was
asking me if I had faith. But at the same time it wasn't asking about religion, God, the supernatural or any of those other things that tend to get
in the way.
How do I know this? Well the question wasn't - do you believe in… (insert religion or deity here) it was simply, ‘Do you believe?’ For
educated, intelligent people a tad on the cynical side, this one is a toughie.
Also since it wasn't verbal, semantics didn't get in the way - no problems with thinking about the words or their many meanings. It was straight
message/no language no interpretation problems. My interrogators were smart that way
It was a simple naked question posed to me very simply.
I remember I choked up in the dream because from the bottom of my heart I realised I wanted to just say yes but I couldn't. For a few brief seconds I
even considering lying. But then I realised as soon as I thought it that *it* knew. I think *it* even sort of smiled. Obviously I discarded the lying
idea quickly when I realised I couldn't get away with it.
But it was more than that. I didn't want to lie. I knew I was going to fail some sort of test and just the way they/it asked me, so patiently, so
kindly, so understanding of *me* as a unique person, made me filled for a few glorious seconds with utter happiness: a range of emotions that I can't
even begin to describe. I felt some sort of drug-like induced euphoria and I didn't want that to end. I didn't want to break the connection by
saying I didn’t believe. To say that the emotions I felt were peace and tranquillity would be to misrepresent what I felt. The closest thing I can
come up with is acceptance. But that doesn't come close to the magnitude of depth. It was like knowing I was protected and safe no matter what. For
all I know, this may have been a trick - I really don't know. I was too emotionally wobbly to be guarded.
Again this is why I attributed the interrogator at the time as some supreme being that could read my mind and search within me to know me enough to
ask about my biggest failing... either that or they were really good at probing.
The question and the probing took about 30 seconds - yes I was
aware of time. But within me it was like a lifetime. I remember thinking that this must be the way people describe your life flashing before your
eyes. It is possible to go through your life in lightening flash bursts like a super quick DVD fast-forward. I did this and at the end of it - almost
resigned at what I knew was certain failure - a voice (my own I think) said, 'yes’ very quietly. And that was that.
Anyway - I've thought about it for a long time (as you can see) and I have come to many conclusions but only two that I will post here.
1. For whatever reason, I had this dream and was asked The Question. After the dream I went all weird and accosted my family, friends and even perfect
strangers. Asking them the same question, I got a lot of startled, scary looks and reactions from loved ones. I think they felt I underwent some cult
thing and went all born-again creepy. Anyway, I realised by asking, that my question was not necessarily their question. Let me explain...
I think there is a question out there like this for everyone. A question that is so unique to you that it renders you troubled or haunted because you
know that if anything could be boiled down to an essence - this would be. Sort of like your gene-specific question. One so rooted within your DNA that
it is yours uniquely like your fingerprints.
Anyway - This one is mine. And mine might be easy for you to answer but yours might be easy for me. For example - some may find 'believing' very
easy but loving very hard. Mine has always been belief and it is one I still struggle with.
2. Believing means many things. I don't think being gullible or convincing oneself of something they want or need to believe is the same thing. I
read/hear about so many things that are simply blind convictions with no actual proof or faith behind them - religion, visitations, sighting,
abductions, etc, you name it. Most of the time they can be attributed to fear, misunderstanding and the ability of our minds to do some powerful crazy
things in strange situations. How we distinguish between truth and projection is highly debatable. I am not even going to talk about reality, as that
can be very limiting. I am more inclined to believe someone who has had something happen to them who can articulate the life altering processes w/out
access to legitimate proof than someone with oodles of photos and/or other tangible proof. Physical doesn’t almost mean real because at the heart of
it whatever you believe has to be built on the basis of faith and then backed up. Not the other way around.
Well this is starting to sound convoluted so I'll stop.
I am not discrediting anyone btw - I love that people can share their ideas and experiences. Thanks for reading and keep the posts coming.