Seriously man, get some.
You
really need to speak to a psychologist or a social worker about this. It would be rational to do this. They would be an objective person
that can help, at the very least, rule out any chemical imbalance.
A
rational person who
doesn't need psychiatric help would do this willingly. An
irrational individual who
does need
psychiatric help will try to avoid this and make up excuses to not see a mental health professional of one form or another. There are allways free
clinics and the like. Anyone experiencing what you are experiencing would need to go to one and explain the situation
at least to rule out a
chemical instability.