I had the most vivid dream last night that I have to document it here today and see if any one can help me figure out what it means. The night before
last, I had another equally vivid dream that I was at a party with Paris Hilton (nothing sexual though), but we won't go into that now. I don't
know what is causing these dreams, other than the abnormally stressful week I've had. Also, the last quarter to new moon week always seems to mess
with me somehow.
Anyway, in my dream I was on an island and was faced with an important choice between two jobs. One was somewhat menial and low profile, without much
pay or benefits. The other was much more exciting, demanding and high profile, and I was being highly recruited for it. For some reason, I was
leaning toward the first position, even though I didn't get the impression that those offering it were that interested in me, though I did feel the
job was mine to accept or reject. I had been moving through the town I was in on this island going from the location of the first job interview to
the second in a somewhat roundabout fashion, from the harbor to the docks where I stopped by a sailboat looking for someone I knew to give me advice.
The person wasn't there, and the pressure was mounting on me to make a decision one way or the other, so I headed to the location of the second
position for a final meeting to accept or reject the high profile job. Both jobs were some sort of management position, the first down in the
low-lying area near the harbor, the second up on a hill overlooking the town. I had to climb a long staircase to reach the second location. I don't
walk well in reality, and in my dream, I was virtually dragging myself along the rail of the stairs crawling up laboriously, each stair more difficult
to negotiate than the last.
Suddenly, there was a disturbance on the hillside to my right, and I looked over to see a landslide of some sort falling on the town below. Not a
huge one but a fall of mostly sand and dirt cascading down the steep hill face. I thought for a second it was an earthquake, but it seemed more like
some kind of sonic disturbance to me that had caused the slide. It was weird. I made it to the top of the stairs and went inside the second
location, I think it was some kind of luxury hotel or upscale B&B. I was told again by the owner that he really wanted me for this position and what
would it take to convince me to take it. I told him I wasn't sure it was right for me, and was considering taking another position. This gentleman,
a rich white light haired and complected guy, knew about the other job, and seemed mad that I would rather have it than the one he was offering. He
told me I needed to think it over, I told him that I already had, and he demanded I go to my room and give him one last opportunity by thinking it
over again. I was apparently staying at this place while I was deciding what job to take. I went back to my room, where I had posted a bunch of
papers detailing something important about what I was about to decide on the back of the door to my room. As I went inside the owner seemed to become
upset at my reluctance, and raised his voice, saying something like "and you better make this quick!". He slammed the door, and lots of my papers
detailing the pros and cons of each position became dislodged and fell to the floor. This was devastating to me as the pressure to make a decision
was so intense and now my notes had become hopelessly jumbled. I knelt to retrieve them and started picking them up when the stress finally
overwhelmed me. I screamed "AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! I want all these papers back in my hands right this second!!!!!" I have never had this level
of expressed emotion in my life, I mean this decision was so crucial to me. Immediately every paper in my vicinity started flying across the room and
sticking to my hands, arms, and chest. The door flew open and every drawer in sight opened and every piece of paper and pad of sticky notes ,
anything paper, flew out and straight to my hands and chest. I was suffused in an electrical feeling like immense power currents were running through
my body. I sensed the presence of others around me and opened my eyes to find a massive jumble of papers on my chest and lap and a man I hadn't seen
before was on my right, holding my hand. A young boy wearing glasses, seemingly autistic or challenged somehow was to my left front, holding my left
hand, and speaking softly in what instantly occurred to me was tongues. He was very close to me and seemed to be concentrating his speech on
something just above my head and slightly to my left. My hands were hurting terribly and I pulled them away from these people. The man on my right
said "No, no, we are trying to help you dissipate the energy." "It hurts!", I said, and he said, "It will go away, just try to relax." I felt
like 140 volts at least were making my entire being tingle to the point of pain, but I put my hands back in theirs and started to slowly feel better,
sure now that I must take the first job down at the bottom of the hill.
Then I woke up. What the heck is this all about?
[edit on 30-6-2005 by Icarus Rising]