posted on Jun, 21 2005 @ 10:19 PM
I cannot tell you how happy I am we have found some common ground Raideur. Now perhaps we can build upon that.
Actually we are right on topic, the study of the Dimension of Mind has to be made by ourselves, with ourselves as both topic and investigator. This is
both the easiest and the hardest thing possible. To me that makes it highly rewarding.
How is it easy? We are with ourselves 24/7 what else can we study in such a comprehensive fashion.
Why is it hard? Because objectivity when it comes to one's self is possibly the most difficult thing one can hope to achieve.
A Challenge no?
You cannot study something if you allow your study to affect that thing too much. It then becomes something other than what it is in it's natural
state. So unless you wish to study the effects of study you have a bit of a problem to overcome. I have found that it is vital to remain true to what
I think and feel but at the same time I wish to observe those things and understand what drives them.
We share so much more than either of us has realized up til now. My passion to understand everything has driven me for my entire life. The feeling
that if I did not understand I was not in control was a real problem until I confronted it head on.
We must learn to live with the unknown, to embrace it even, if we are indeed to ever escape these feelings. The more I tried for control the less of
it I seemed to have, there was always something beyond me and that was both frustrating and scary. I learned one thing, and then knew of 10 more
things that I now knew I did not know about.
(Aside: Everyone, I am trying very hard to be clear here, but the subject does not make it easy. If something does not make sense after a couple of
readings please ask even if it is what seems like a minor point.)
I found that it was my need for the Illusion of total control that was the problem. Simple logic told me that I can never know everything, I can never
control everything, it will never... be... possible... So my longing for control was my problem. From an objective point of view (expressed to me many
times by others but I would not listen) compared to most people I not only knew more but I had more control.
Others looked at me as a model of how one can decide their own fate, and yet I felt my control was limited at best.
Turns out, they were right. And if you think that was not a bitter pill to take then you just have not been paying attention.
By the simple act of accepting that I could never have perfect knowledge or total control I was freed from the very things that limited me. I feel
that since that time I have attained a level of understanding and a control over my own life that most would envy.
Logic, finite ideas, can never encompass the Universe, they will always fall short. To really understand anything you have to be able to drop all
forms of rational thought (just for a moment) and see that you are indeed as much the Universe as you are a piece of it.
I am very harsh when it comes to people in the past. Aside from how to make wine, and a few people like Plato, I know they did not understand even a
fraction of what we know today. They wrote on parchment, we send messages around the globe in an instant. They walked, we fly.
But... and oh man was this also hard to accept. Humanity has always understood far more than I ever realized. They had an advantage you see, they knew
little but without the clutter of theory, science, global communications, they were able to better accept the Infinity that is Reality than we are
You cannot understand Infinity with your rational mind. Sure you can do the math 'any finite number is zero when compared to Infinity'. But our
rational mind is basically finite and the Universe is not. The only path to whatever level of real understanding we can achieve is through letting go
of the rational (again for a moment) and just 'be'. So while it may be hard to understand and seem laughable when someone says 'if you stare at a
Tree, not 'thinking' at all, you will learn something you can get no other way' it is the truth.
What you will learn you might never be able to express but you will know that somehow something new has been understood. With that comes a sense of
peace, perspective, and belonging that we in this modern age lack.