posted on Jul, 26 2005 @ 12:51 PM
I'm on the outside looking in at all of it--I haven't been to church (except for funerals) in 18 years. 18 years going to church, 18 years not
going to church. I had one desire in my heart when I was 8 years old and baptized, and kept that desire for 36 years. And the LORD was with me
everwhere I went, every minute of the whole time. Being aware of this I realized that He is not found in church but in your heart, which is where
your longing for Him dwells. And so I realized He makes good on His promises, and in the last few years, He's fulfilled my lifelong desire and so I
just want to broadcast it to the whole world. God is TRUE!
That being said, looking from the outside in, now for me, is quite the perspective clarifier. I left religion, but I didn't worry what others were
doing. I was 'live and let live' by nature. But these days, after some very trying times of all sorts of hardship, where the LORD taught me not
just to believe in Him but to put my trust completely in Him, I can see that there is a major flaw in all structured religion, on TV and in the
These ideas are ideas that remain in the physical realm--IOW they are not worshipping in 'spirit and truth'. However it might be disguised or
minimized, all of it is somewhat tradition and ritual. So--no matter how much is truth, a little leaven spoils the whole lot, right? Christ said
it--it certainly is a trustworthy saying.
And a preacher of the gospel that depends upon a certain individual or entity for the sustenance, whether it be room and board or a salary--if it is
not God who they are depending upon, it is not God they are 'working for.'
Depending upon the local parish is not depending upon God. God will provide for one who does His work, but to think that means a regular paycheck or
something we believe we can 'depend' on is not depending upon God. And all souls' have an undeniable need/want to please their employer.
Paul depended upon God to take care of Him, and surely God uses people to care for people. But Paul didn't depend on any one person or group all the
time. He just trusted in God and Paul never went hungry, not in poverty. He suffered, sure, but God didn't let him flounder without supply.
God is no different right now than He was then.
I can truthfully testify that if you trust in God to take care of you, and sincerely don't put thought to tomorrow, today (it's hard, I know, but
it's just one big step, once you do it, you're done with worry) He will provide all you need and surprise you with things you didn't know you
But that means letting the Holy Spirit teach you, not religious men. Just the fact that none ever say they know for sure and no two can agree is
proof enough there's no certainty in their words like you can receive from God.
And I can say I know that for sure. It's in the bible and it's in my heart and it's tried and true. 'Private intepretation' means not with
another person, it means alone without the holy spirit. Why did Christ say to the disciples He would not leave them alone, in a world of probably 250
million people, if he meant they'd have human company? The Holy Spirit is our pal, not a preacher/minister/priest. We have a priest, advocate,
teacher, and comforter all wrapped in one invisible friend who lives in our hearts for us alone, each of us.