Oh Please, Start!
Thanks for the kind words. My ego, which alternates unpredictably between extremes of limitless arrogance and spineless insecurity, always appreciates
compliments.
Considering my odds of actually being elected, I think most of my public soul-searching and preaching from my chair amount to dancing in the spotlight
for 15 minutes.
I really had no interest in this whole council business until the possibility that I might be on it came up.
The internal dialog went something like this: “Screw it. It's just politics and won't amount to anything worthwhile. What? I'm nominated? Well
then this is a matter of greatest import to us all!”
So I had to ponder the apparent hypocrisy of that sudden change of heart, which was not the most pleasant of exercises.
I don't know who nominated me, but whoever you are, thanks, because if nothing else, I think I am learning some valuable lessons from all this.
Not Exactly Sitting Around Twiddling My Thumbs
I'm really not looking for a job. I have some pretty big projects going on elsewhere and would have to make some pretty significant changes to my
schedule if I got elected.
The weather just got good around here, and I don't want to have a new job cut into my summer recreational plans too much. I like to travel, hike and
camp, and also intend to fix up an old boat and take it out on various lakes, too.
I'm in the process of finishing up a 130,000+ word amateur fiction novel I've been working on since December (about 98% done before it goes into
editing), and have entered an album contest which will require me to write and record at least six thematic songs within the next month or so.
I'm also very active on another forum, and would no doubt have to reluctantly scale back my activities there during my term as an ATS councilor, at
least.
So I have things to do if I don't get elected. No sweat there.
Will I Or Won't I?
I have undoubtedly given some of my fellow members the impression that my heart might not in it if I got elected.
Well, here's the deal. I've thought it over, and I am willing to give it a shot.
I had seriously considered withdrawing -- not just floating the idea for public drama -- and I have rejected that option.
I'm going to go along with this as far as it will take me. However far that may be, I'm okay with it.
If I become ATS DISC Councilor, I will no doubt throw myself into that job with abandon, as is my custom.
If I don't get elected, I still plan to be a vocal if less active participant in the process, and hope either way to inspire those who do take
positions on the council to remember who they're working for:
us.
Trappings Of Office
More than a few of my fellow members have observed with concern how politics changes us, and indeed it does.
I find myself wondering if I'm posting from the heart or pitching to the voters. Sometimes, I honestly can't tell the difference.
Is my passion for this process driven by genuine concern, or just an expression of my own bloated ego?
Might I really accomplish anything meaningful through this process, or will this end up being a monumental train wreck, a public spectacle full of
sound and fury, and signifying nothing?
Will I, like so many other neo-politicians, become obsessed with “saving the world” and end up promoting every harebrained scheme under the sun
to do something,
anything, good or ill, simply to satisfy myself and my voters that I'm accomplishing something?
What will the real cost of participating in this process ultimately be?
I don't know, but I think it could be high.
Counting The Cost
I can foresee some prospective councilors -- and staff members -- blowing a fuse over all this.
I can foresee cliques and factions waging war with one another.
I can foresee people who are valued members of our community burning out and disappearing -- perhaps forever.
I can foresee a zealous but misguided council leading ATS down the wrong path, driving good members away and turning ATS into something nightmarish
and horrible.
Having said all that...
Nothing worth achieving comes without risk.
For my part, having given these things very careful consideration, I have decided that I am willing to take the risks of campaigning for ATS DISC
Councilor, and, if elected, give the job the absolute very best I can give it.
Anything less would be unacceptable to me.