posted on Apr, 9 2005 @ 09:53 PM
for about 2 years now, i have had these strange....beings in my head. i call them beings because, while they seem to be a part of my subconscious,
they do not reflect my personality. the first is called the criminal. he speaks to me with feelings, not words, but he gives me feelings of badnes.
example. if i have a girlfriend, this criminal will tell me that every bad thing that i could possibly think of happening, is happening when i am not
with her. and this seems a great deal stronger than just paranoia. the other is the wall. he is essentially what seems to be me from around 4 or 5
years ago. just cold and emotionless. this one actually seems to take over me for some reason, as the criminal does not. i become...a wall, hence the
name, non responsive, emotionless, usually even non-speaking. the strange(r) thing is that while this is happening, i realize what is going on, but i
cannot do anything about it, i cannot speak or anything. it just wears off in time, usually an hour or so. i am not as concerned with the wall as i am
with the criminal, he is the one who seems to be doing the most damage. any insights are welcome.