posted on Dec, 1 2006 @ 04:01 PM
This is a really fascinating insight into the world of our ATS member's psyche.
It is amazing how many people describe their emotions in a way which parallels my own. I am shocked, as I was convinced there was something wrong
I find it very difficult communicating with people face to face who I haven't met before - in fact (i live in shared accomodation) I am sitting in my
living room and 3 women are in my kitchen, and I'm desperately needing the toilet, but I don't want to run the risk of getting embroiled in a
pointless conversation and totally f**king it up!
Social Anxiety exactamondo. I hate large crowds, and don't enjoy parties (unless I've had a few pints of the old dutch courage that is!).
When I was 18, I attempted suicide. I can't even explain why I did it now but it made sense at the time. I think in the last few years I have
become more much wiser and I don't let my emotions get the better of me. In fact, I am a very passive person. I have a very dry sense of humor, I
At school, I was a very disruptive pupil. I was a 'naughty boy' (who wasn't!) and used to get up to a lot of mischief. It got so bad that I
refused to learn in the classroom of my 4th year and spent 8 months making models out of the lego technic that was stored at the back of the
classroom, or making electronic things, like buzzers that used to chime when someone entered the classroom.
This teacher finally had enough and my parents were informed. Some guy came in and we went to a little room for about 2 hours. He got me to do all
sorts of tests and I found them really easy. I found it fun. I had no idea these were IQ tests. My parents told me I was 'gifted' (I remember
saying 'does that mean I get more presents at christmas' !!!) It was 6 years later that my parents told me those were IQ tests and they showed me
the report. At 9 years old, my IQ was apparently 192.
I've done many of these online IQ tests and all the questions seem pretty much the same - what makes me laugh is you can go back and correct your
answers once you know your score, as the questions themselves don't change - I'm pretty sure this defeats the object. These tests also have a
maximum level, some of them 140, some even less.
In my point of view, having a higher IQ doesn't imply that you are any more intelligent than the next person. Intelligence comes from life
I'll give you a real life example:
A little girl aged 6 is being tested. She is shown a picture of a table with only 3 legs. When asked to state what is wrong with the picture, she
says nothing is wrong with the picture. When quizzed about her answer, she replies (in the innocence only a child can show!)...My mummy has a table
just like that and she puts it againt the wall to stop it from falling over.......
I will say that a higher IQ is linked to mental problems. As I've said, I suffer from social anxiety, occassional depression, even low self esteem
- I can't explain why, there is no obvious reason for these emotions but they are there and I have put up with them pretty much all my life.
I have a very small group of friends who are very close. I can go out on the p*ss and meet new people and get on with them really well. However,
when I'm sober and meet them again, I'm a totally different person and find it incredibly difficult striking up any sort of conversation with
I absolutely hate small talk! I would much rather get into a deep conversation with a person who shares the same interests. On the other hand, I
find I have an excellent telephone manner and can talk utter bollocks as long as I can't see them.
I am a deep thinker, sometimes catching myself thinking about many things at the same time which I find really odd as most people I meet can only
think about one thinking at a time. I also find it very difficult to switch my mind off - I've heard that some people can simply switch off light a
light - I really envy them!!