posted on Aug, 18 2008 @ 05:46 AM
There is obviously a link between being a genius and insane.
My mates (friends) who have math and engineering degrees etc are quite odd.
They empty their shoes in the middle of the shopping centre, build tesla coils to guard against burglars, do calculus when they cant sleep, think
their fridge is talking Morse code when it beeps and swears the fridge translated to 'kill'.
Anyway maybe in order to think a concept unlike any other you have to have an outward way of thinking....
maybe the differences that separate you from a social society cause the environment that develops your 'insane' way of behaving and thinking.
The fact im outcast to a room lacking light with a computer every day for years, of cause something would happen to my state of mind.
And when your in your room or in solitary confinement with access to knowledge of cause you obtain knowledge.
anyway writing and i dont go together, im working on it, but lots of the 'insane' behavious and strange/different concepts and ways of thinking i
and my friends indeed have,.
my problem is trying to obtain the knowledge, its obtaining the resources/opportunities and knowledge to carry out the goals and concepts in life.
i struggle with that.
look at Nikola Tesla, his life was one great struggle.
Every time he tried to invent, get funding, build a lab etc something would go wrong. his labs got knocked down, he has patents stolen, he didnt get a
noble prize, he worked as a labourer for like 2 years to get funding.
imagine going out the front of your house and seeing einstien digging trenches for money to finance his research.
Tesla is probably the greatest inventor for all the struggling he did and all the bad things that went wrong - he stil achieved so much.
I just learnt about cold electricity, which is a discovery of Nikola Tesla we will be seeing in the future, i am quite certain.
Anyway i am not inciting that i am intelligent, i am just trying to make some examples of similarities and point out that people struggle to achieve
their concepts and goals because of lack of support/social outcasting/resources.
The fact Tesla had to be a labourer upsets me.
Anyway i stil maintain the fact that one day in some aspect i will rule the world, or i will be able to break through any computer security system,
thats on my to do list.
i have no idea what my point was anyway, dismiss anything i wrote unless you got something from it.
Also its interesting i have been thinking if the environment we live in develops our minds.....
for example what if all of us were born with broad shoulders, looks that made the girls scream, chiseled abs, and lived at the beach and had access to
surfing, would you all have achieved what you achieved and be who youa re today and have ever written on this forum?
would i have ever written on this forum?
The computer at many points in my life was from my point of view my only friend, i always have a change of thoughts, my mind is always switching from
thought to thought, from idea to idea, perhaps being of some intelligence, not necessarily a genius but just being of some intelligence is a curse and
a life struggle.
My brother is a major in english and i don't know anyone as good as he is in writing but its odd, its almost as though he was born a nerd.
he got thick black square glasses, no long vision, he has odd indie music taste that scrae people, example "the animal collective" is a band -
listen to them.
he got asthma, diabeties type 1 - the insulin dependent one.,he is 22 with no driving license.
I have Wegeners granuloma matosis and im only 19 this year, i have screwed up lungs, no long vision, weird long hair, acne, i dont try to be weird but
i cant control my thoughts and ideas and goals, i am called a light switch by friends for im always switching on and off, i blame what i am on my
environment - i shouldnt have moved away from the beach, perhaps i would know a girl, anyway i consider knowledge all we really have