(posted by dotgov101)
(...) Mr. Gray, methinks.
Clever insight! But fear not. We're the good guys "out there". It's the scaly, cold-blooded ones, and their android robots and thought projections (a.k.a. MIBs), you must avoid at all times. Remember, never trust a Lizard.
Enjoying sz (!!!)
In our ongoing study of the mind of the earthling we were surprised to find, at the said Board, the case of someone who actually hates it when she's "normal". See for yourself...
i've been having schizophrenic symptoms all my life...since i was about 3 years old, maybe younger. i was diagnosed about a year ago. I have also been off medications. I recently had another real bad episode and went back to the hospital. I told them i would go back on the geodon, only if it is a very low dose, because i do not want all my symptoms taken away.
anyway, i've been back on the geodon, 20 mgs for about 2 weeks ( i think the average dose is around 120 mgs) and it has helped somewhat. I am not completly delusional, but still paranoid and suspcicious. but im still having the negative symptoms, voices, visuals, altered sense of self (though not as much) and thought problems.
I;m so use to my symptoms. it's they only way i have ever known myself to be. It is strange and depressing for me to have to be on high doses of meds and have all my symptoms taken away. I dont know how to go about life "normally" im glad some people in my life are starting to listen to how i feel, but most still cant understand "why the heck wouldn;t i want to be normal" well i dont want to be normal because it is alien to me...i have never been normal.
Unfortunatly, i am unable to work because of all the negative symptoms, paranoia, and thought problems. I have never had a job yet (im 18.) and i had to drop out of school.
..for Infinite, who we sense is sick & tired of the irrelevant chatter. So from now on we shall communicate with Dot Gov thru comments at the blog site ( if she grants the privilege, of course), remotely, from our cozy little base on the far side of your Moon....