Originally posted by infinite
its sad that i cant remember the good old days when i was laughing and happy....those days are long gone
Whoa man, hold on a second.
Mental illness, of most sorts, is not permanent and is not something that people can't deal with.
Like I noted before, a friend of mine had a similar experience. I can't say that he specifically had schizophrenia proper. but effectively he had
some sort of psychotic break. Let me do the rundown if I didn't post about this.
He was a business studnet, doing well, in college, had a g/f, had good friends, everything was more or less hunkydory (nothing ever is 'perfect',
but things were good). Anyway, slowly people started noticing that he was acting unusual for himself. I wasn't aware of it tho.
From what I was told, this friend started thinking that the sports announcers were talking about him and making fun of him
. He heard them
talking about him. He thought that the univerisity's website had webpages about him and his girlfriend. He read and saw the pages. He was working
on a paper with some other students, and when the disk came to him to do his part, he read that there were all sorts of insults and godknows what from
the previous person. He started yelling at his housemates and all sorts of things went down and people realized that there was something every wrong.
By the time I heard about this (it built up and exploded pretty quickly) we were all taking him to the airport to fly him home, and he was like
another person, just, completely despondant, literally head in hands and then sometimes cracking up at absolutely nothing.
He went home, he saw a psych, he was put on anti-psychotics, he spent some of the first week or two back home at a psych ward, and he got better.
Hell, the bastard still
graduated on time and got a nice job in the field he wanted, an apartment and a new girlfriend shortly after it all.
He got thru it because he worked on it and because he had good medication and met with his psychologist. Whatever
differences there are
between your problems and his, don't listen to people telling you to do anything in terms of your treatment except for your psychologists. Apparently
something that happens to people in their mid 20's ish, it just seems to pop up at that time.
So, keeping that in mind, and relating it to this webforum, the internet can be a bane and a boom for these kind of things. One the one hand, the
people here and elsewhere are varaiably experienced with these sorts of things (and others who are not), and any sort of discussion is generally good.
On the other hand, if you want to give your brain something to imagine things about and to be paranoid with, the internet in general is not a good
place for that.
Anyway, what does your girlfriend and family think about this?
im fighting the urges now to take a knife to myself
Jesus christ man, Don't effing do that!
You don't have anything 'horrible' in you, you're a person, people make mistakes and do bad things
and they have to work thru that. But you do not have some 'thing' inside of you.
I listen to music and read alot now to take my mind of it.
How often do you see your close friends?
[qote] I dont feel anything demonic is ruining my life, something else is.
Why would your life be being ruined?