So, given the long, long list of doomsdayers and cultists and general psychos expounding on what'll happen in 2012, I wanted to take the time to add
myself to the list of them.
However I think my story is pretty different than anybody else's, and for that I've decided to post it to gather a
For a long time, literally as far back as I can remember, I've had a "feeling." When I was little this feeling amounted to nothing more than a
general bad vibe; as I've gotten older it's filtered itself out into something more coherent, something clearer. I feel like the older I get the
more I'm able to piece the puzzle of this intuitive thing together into a more definable picture.
The jist of my vibe is this: again, for as long as I can remember, I've felt like something was coming. When I was younger it was just that. I had a
general, all-around bad feeling about something, but it felt like it was so far away that most of the time I forgot about it and it was just a distant
"bad taste" in my consciousness. Kindof like how if you've got an appointment to do something months from now that you're not looking forward
to-most of the time you forget about it, but then you remember and it makes you grit your teeth. As I aged it started to make more sense to me. What
started out as a bad feeling about some arbitrary time became something more.
Before I get into the specifics I want to point out that I didn't start looking into any of this stuff until really recently, say since 1998, which
was well after I'd already had a "date" in mind for this supposed "bad thing." 2012 had somehow been on my mind strangely for a long time. How I
came to learn about all the rest of this is rather serendipitous. I had a good friend I was extremely close to who one day I decided to share these
things with, thinking he'd think I was totally crazy. Instead he got really excited, really freaked out, and started telling me about books I should
read on the Mayan calendar and other paranormal prophecies. He was freaked out because I specifically mentioned the winter solstice of 2012 as the
time. I'll reiterate, I already had that date in mind for literally years before I started to look into it. So when I found all of this weird
"evidence" that seemingly corroborated my vibes I was freaked out.
Ever since then I've been gathering facts, gathering thoughts, reading opinions, reading history, listening out for more signs that I'm on the right
track and reevaluating when I feel I'm not. For what it's worth I don't consider myself the doomsday type; I don't call myself Azure Aurora
I don't walk around claiming psychic visions, nor do I really give credit to many things considered paranormal (UFOs, etc), so hopefully you'll take
that into consideration for where I go next, cos I do take THIS pretty seriously. So without further ado, here's my "vision" of 2012:
As I said, I think something's coming. I'd qualify that something as evil. I think a war will either break out or culminate at the winter solstice
of 2012. When I say war I don't really think I mean G-squared's next of kin getting trigger happy or anything even human. When I say evil I mean
that in its fullest sense, the complete manifestation of bad. I think this will be the allegorical war between good and evil, light and darkness. I
feel this with all certainty in my body, far more than I think most people felt who said the war was ending in 2000.
whether I'm right or wrong, I
BELIEVE this, and I've definitely adjusted my life in preparedness of what I feel is coming.
Now I don't mean this biblically either. I don't think Jesus is coming, I don't think it'll be a war between God and the Devil, angels and demons.
I think it'll be bigger than that. I think it'll be much bigger than that. I also, for whatever reason, feel like the catalyst is gonna be in
England/Europe, because for as long as I've felt that it'll happen in 2012 I've also felt that in 2012 I need to be in Glastonbury, UK. (You can do
a google search for the significance of this, but I'll also say that I originally thought this city was completely made up within my head and was
EXTREMELY freaked when I found out it was real.)
I feel like whatever forces gathering in 2012 have been around and working for a while. I mean just look at the state of things, all around it's
clear there's some evil pervading things. The second part of my "vibe" is that I think it's going to be evident that something bad is happening by
the end of 2007 (and I also came up with this before hearing about John Titor). I don't know how or why, but I think that's when there's going to
start being some undeniable, quantifiable proof of what's going on. What I mean is, right now all this talk of 2012 and the Mayan calendar and the
end prophecies is on the fringe, not really discussed in the mainstream. By 2007 I think things will reach the point that people start talking about
it at the dinner table.
I can't tell you why I think I have all these feeling and all this "insight," especially since there's really nothing I can do but talk about it,
but in my experience with telling people this stuff I'm finding more and more people that have also had feelings about some impending evil in the
distance, if they don't also share my guess on the year and date. I think some big bad is coming and I think it's had a lot longer to prepare for
that year than we're going to get. And I don't know what (or if, even) will happen after that (and I'm also open to the idea that I could be wrong
) but like I said before, I BELIEVE this. Since I like to consider that I'm relatively sane and stable, what does that count for?
So my question is this: has anybody else felt the way I do? I'm not talking about after you started pouring over stories of Mayan priests claiming
that this was the end, I mean always, before you started researching. As for everyone else, what do you think? If I'm right, what can we do?
[edit on 23-3-2005 by mixvio]