posted on Nov, 10 2005 @ 06:51 AM
I grew up in a 2nd gen 2 girls only family. I did not want boys...boys were yewky and i didn't have a clue on boy babies...
my first two children were girls, I always thought I would have three girls no boys so was shocked to hear my next baby was going to be a son. The
ultrasound picture caught him mid wee wee, so there was no doubt what it was. I didn't want him. He was conveived by rape and I hated him for his
father, for putting him there and for raping me while laying in a bed just home fron hospital with a fractured skull and many other broken bones
including most ribs from a beating he had given me two days before. I hated that he was going to become his father. i hated him for everytime I would
look at him and see his father in his actions, I hated him for growing up into his fathers shoes, I hated him for the fact he would look like his
When Kaelan was born, I fell in love with him, he was a little lost kitten in my arms, he was innocent, he was pure, he was himself. Everyday my 7
year son brings me flowers, at least 20 times a day my son comes and tells me how much he loves me, my son cuddles me and adores me as I adore him.
His little brother is me all over but in a boy, my daughters are all me but different bits.. i love them all I wouldn't choose a sex, I love them all
so dearly for their own individual beings
The reason i said all this is because its an issue I have thought on over the years. If you asked me 8 years ago, my answer would have been girl, no
doubt in my mind at all 100 percent if not 150 percent. If you ask me now I couldn't choose. The sexes are both so special with their own rewards.
Kaelan started life with an uphill battle just on his sex alone but in a blink of a baby's eye, he changed a whole perspective, thought and deep deep
and no His father hasn't been on the scene since he was 3 weeks old and I am happy and my kids are happy now.