posted on Dec, 1 2020 @ 09:12 PM
It's the one's that claim they are perfectly normal you have to watch out for?.
Seriously it is a horrible disability, hearing voices can turn to paranoia which is a nightmare to live with and make you think people are talking
about you when they are not.
Seeing thing's can be terrifying.
And it is worse for those that love you, your mom who probably whish's she could take it away or even have your illness herself.
God bless and keep you and your loved one's safe, get well and stay on the medicine, remember this can be treated by balancing your brain chemistry
and that is what the medication is trying to do.
It's hard but many have worked with similar conditions, I have and forced myself to ignore what came on me after head injury's and some idiot putting
something hallucinogenic in my meal when I was not looking, I think I had what you may call a break down but I saw mist, shadow people and almost
solid but transparent black shadow people that had tiny red eye's.
Wearing a religious icon when something black and shimmering jumped into me and it turned jet black with a soot like layer and all metal kept
tarnishing on me for several years after that.
Had sleep paralysis and would feel like I was being suffocated and my head had something heavy and hot sitting on it which would make me fight to
wake up and I would gasping for breath, had black soot hoof print's appear on my wall next to my head and up and over the ceiling probably mould or
something though the pattern was repeating - I painted over it but neglected to use a stain blocker undercoat so the black hoof print's just came
through the paint, had what many call out of body experiences, were they or were they simply delusions I don't know, head voices and got paranoid but
fought through it.
Saw people dying THROUGH there eye's, particular scary and insanity inducing, it sent me riding around on my bicycle at all hours of the day and
night for month's trying to find a house in which I had experiences some woman's last moment's thinking that maybe I was meant to save her, thank god
I never came across a house the same as the one in the dream or who knows how that would have ended.
Forced myself to ignore it, you can not live in that world and this one you can only live in one world at one time, took job's below my
qualifications and worked and worked and threw myself into my work to take my mind off it and keep myself occupied so that I could ignore it, no one
knew how ill I was as I masked it.