posted on Nov, 3 2020 @ 05:45 PM
a reply to: TheToastmanCometh
I have things far from figured out, so I'm going to place that disclaimer right up front.
The OP was honestly pretty short, and I doubt you're doing yourself any justice. It takes a lot of bravery to immerse yourself in different
environments while also taking leaps of faith. Honestly, I kind of beat myself up for being the opposite, emotionally reserved and pretty calculated
with anything I do. While I do have an impulsive side, I usually have an exit strategy before entering anything.
It sounds like the only thing really bothering you is the angst of everything that's piled up (a lot of it not your fault, that's an important
emphasis IMO as life happens, and aside from the relationships, much of the stressors were out of your control). If you're anxious, I'd only suggest
my tried and true method (rarely works, I'm embellishing) method of thinking of all possibilities and responses for coping with anxiety. A possibility
concerning you? Play it out in your head, think of worst case scenarios all around and decide what you think you would do with those realities. We've
all seen how everything can change in the blink of an eye, I wouldn't obsess about every single possibility out there, but if a certain event has you
hung up, play it out in your head.
You kind of like Peru? Think of a way if you and home dude split. If you're working, I imagine your VISA would still stay valid. Is there a
possibility it won't stick given events, sure.... So explore how you'd come back state side if that was the case, reach out to our consulate once the
dust from the election settles.
Without knowing you more, I'd just implore you stop being so hard on yourself. Life is too short, and we're far too imperfect to allow ourselves to be
bogged down with the thoughts of where we "went wrong". It all is what it is, look forward, don't get too hung up on the past. There's a difference
between acknowledging where we went wrong for the future and not letting go of what's done.
Listen to your head, sounds like you got a good one on your shoulders, and don't ignore your heart (but take that guy with a grain of salt