posted on May, 1 2005 @ 05:53 PM
Im 35, i met a girl when i was 22, she was 19, Amanda her name is. The sister of one of my best mates. I believed that she loved me, but she was the
sister of my best mate, plus she lived out of the area.
I never had the opportunity to get close, yet the spark was there just this 'wall' was there that we couldnt get through, that aspect was difficult
to explain. Slowley i watched her slip away out of my life. The only person i ever wanted was gone.
Its been over 10 years, shes 32 or so, young mother with a daughter, im still friends with her brother.
i myself am still single. ive had several girlfriends but none of them worked. These girls i have got over and forgot. The woman i used to know, im
still in love with her as powerfully now as it was all those years ago. it is true love, its never died. i still think of her, i still want her. But
ive accepted she has her life now. I dont care what she looks like or the fact that she has a daughter i'd love it if she came back into my life and
I will find someone and settle one day. but this woman will have the special corner of my feelings no one else will ever have. no other woman will
have that. ive often asked myself why after all this time i still love her. Truth is i have no answer. i just do.
Like someone once said in a film. You dont know why your in love, you just know it through and through, balls to bones.
Its painful to live with the burden. But its not impossible. time heals.
[edit on 1-5-2005 by rustiswordz]