Let me get this straight, you can send your negative energies or vibes out into a crowd of people and they *all* can feel it? How do you know that it's only you or your immediate family/friends that aren't just feeling it?
What I mean is how can you tell that everyone in the room feels it? How do you know it's not someone elses energy you are actually feeling? You
should certainly look at all aspects of it first before putting complete blame on yourself. You actually seem as though you are quite empathetic..but
maybe you don't want to be as it's too strong for you. Some people are VERY empathetic and it can and will over run you or run you down..
for instance..you being highly empathetic, walk into a room of 100 people and 51 of those people are feeling very negative, you are going to pick up
on it and possibly think that it's actually *you* that's sending it. That would be quite overwhelming to feel 51 negative emotions or vibes from
people! So yes it would make you feel very miserable.
It also seems that some people who are empathetic are quite the loners, they don't really talk to many people, aren't very outgoing and may infact
feel as though they have no connection here with people, because their world is built around their minds, and connections to others minds-not the
physical. It can feel as though you don't really like people, as you are SO different, that you seem more like an outsider looking in, or an insider
looking out really..
Empathy can be quite hard to understand and deal with and it can make you feel like bursting sometimes, the trick is to not let it overcome you, you
have to overcome it..understanding it is the first step, and I mean understanding it from every aspact. There is a thread here that discusses this and
I think it could possibly help you if you read it. I don't think you are what you think you are, meaning I think you might just have it
backwards..but then, I certainly don't mind being wrong and you telling me..
Let me know what you think and I'll give you more of what I *do* know if you want..