I just wanted her to be real and admit to them the Truth. They are corrupt and I was trying to help them out of it.
I do the same crap to all of you here regularly. I'll get in your face and call you out if I think you need it because I have high hopes and believe
in each of your potential to be better like I've been busting my ass to do for me to improve over my flaws.
I'm not a criminal and my whole life is devoted to proving it to that judge so he'll step in and crush Tennessee and mandamus it all away (order them
to nullify all their proceedings).
I get on the plane to Denver in like an hour. I know I'm walking right back into Hell all over again but this time it'll be the Worst Yet.
Now my spines broken. I can barely walk. I threw away all my clothes cept 1 change cuz it's too heavy. I can only carry so much. A backpack already
kills me so I had to trash all my stuff even my prized coffee thermus and the Bible my daughter gave me last month. I had to ditch everything.
No libraries open anywhere. No cafes. Those places would have kept me warm but now I don't have that. No computer to e-file with or type it up clean
The Court isn't open either like normal so I gotta pay for copies with my last dollars just to get the right forms filled out and ready.
No family will let me in cuz I'm a "Corona carrier" in their minds. Even Rachel's been begging me to leave PA and come back to her for months and now
even she's suddenly scared cuz she believes Corona will kill her too.
Nothing I say calms them down though I debunk it so well. They don't know all this stuff like we here at ATS do. Like Rachel she has zero exposure to
anything we've been talking about here for years. She's totally innocent and naive. The MSM got her despite my best efforts.
I would be there with her today if it wasn't for all this. She'd let me use her PC and mailbox and bed and food and wifi - and she wants me back but I
"have to quarantine and sterilize for 2 weeks first" before I can come back.
I don't really want to go back to her, yes I loved her but it was all wrong for me. She doesn't understand me. She has no clue how to talk
intelligently with me. I bore her with anything I want to talk about.
She doesn't understand my strong emotions or passion. She doesn't get my Spirituality. It's not right. It can't work! I'll waste years on someone who
isn't my soulmate. I'll get trapped in depression and sadness because I can't be appreciated for my unique qualities or my sharp mind.
She definitely wouldn't understand my threads either. A huge buzz kill!
So I'm toast. I'm forced into a huge rush with No Resources or help from anyone aside of the 220$ I started with a few days ago when I began my cross
I'm gonna fail my case, I'm gonna go completely insane over this I won't make it.
Don't tell me I'll be OK or that I'll find a way. That's complete BS and I know it. I'm a cripple damnit. I know my limits and I am 100% finished.
Once I get off that plane in Denver I got 48 to 72 hours before I am in the hospital for frostbite or possibly paralysis trying to walk miles like
I might have been ok if I could have stayed in PA at that house, it was warm and I was friends with all the ppl who rented rooms there.
I lost my kids all over again. A second time. Will I ever see them again? I don't think I'll ever return. This feels like the End. I'm panicked
I just know in my heart this is it. I had no where to turn. Everything blew up in my face and it's way way worse than round 1 ever was. I thought part
1 was the ultimate Hell of misery and suffering. This will be my finale.
I hope that witch is happy finally, I'm on my way to Doom.
edit on 3/28/2020 by muzzleflash because: (no reason given)