posted on Mar, 18 2020 @ 07:53 PM
I don't really have a real life 'sounding board' nearby, so this post is nice to see right now, thanks OP.
So far I have managed to keep myself calm and collected, it helped a great deal that I started paying attention back in January. I was able to buy a
little extra of all the essentials at each grocery trip up to now, so that I haven't had to go out among the hordes and I should be set for myself,
teen, 2 dogs and chickens. I've started seeds for this year's garden. I've tried to keep busy getting things done. Hope for the best, prepare for the
worst. That's pretty much been my mantra as this issue has escalated, it's helped me stay calm and rational.
But now, stuck at home and I feel a tremendous weight of dread. I feel like it's going to get very bad and lots of people are going to lose their
lives and their livelihood . I'm really nervous about all the extra purchases of guns and ammunition. I'm a gun person, but it frightens me seeing
photos of people lining up out the door to purchase guns and ammo. Mostly that frightens me because they are that scared. Scared people do
Central NC, my dogs had a vet appointment today. I called yesterday to see if they still wanted me to come in, and they said yes and that they were
spacing out appts to minimize people in waiting areas. Went in, one older 70+ couple with their dog was arriving at the same time. They went in first
and we gave each other a wide berth, then went on opposite ends of the room to wait. My young pup was being rowdy (bad) so we went into an exam room
first. Two techs came in, no masks and tended to my dogs. It was a small room, I crammed myself into a corner and tried to breathe as little as
possible. Finished that, went out to the front desk to pay. three people were crammed behind the desk. Safe to say if one of those employees gets
sick, they all will, and however many clients they have.
I shouldn't have to leave again for quite some time, but now all I can do is sit here and wonder what life is going to be like in 2,4,6 months? How
bad, really, could it get? Quarantines for a year? Societal collapse? Riots? Or a simple recovery? Whether or not I am ready to handle whatever comes
my way? Have I done enough as a mom to keep my kid safe? Is there more that I could be doing?
My other mantra: "Just keep swimming" -Dorie