I've hit rock bottom.......

I'm not sure why people drink alcohol so often.

It's literally stunting your intellectual abilities.
It makes you into an idiot. A huge one.
And it's damaging your organs.

Please don't be a worthless piece of #.
Just quit alcohol completely.

a reply to: MisterSpock

I watched the original, and have seen some of the reboot.

Can't stand either. I find both the acting and writing very poor.

There are so many amazing things to watch/stream.

What use to society does a monster like me have?

I say quit cold turkey. Start weaning yourself off by watching Vampire Diaries and then Historical dramas, then just then you might be able to stomach some documentaries.

a reply to: MisterSpock
Pray to the Lord Jesus Christ. Keep praying and you will get help. I certainly will be praying for you. You are worth a lot!!
You have purpose but you are drowning it in alcohol.

We all have bad times. I went through a bad divorce. Jeez Judges can really make you feel impish. That man had my life in his hands. It was a lot like the Democrat puppet court. Anything I said was irrelevant I felt hopeless. Well long story short I pulled up in my boot straps and worked harder to pay 63 months of alimony and child support plus 30K in cash and absorbed 50K in her credit card debt. And Ya know I was the one cheated on go figure. But today been remarried 18 years and loving life. If I CAN DO IT YOU CAN TOO!!!

Oh by the way the scotch will taste better when things are figured out.!!!

a reply to: MisterSpock

When you hit rock bottom -- start digging

that's all i got

a reply to: MisterSpock

What use to society does a monster like me have?

This is like being a tree and longing for fruit. Stop looking at the fruit when you are the tree!

Dropping a grand on these if they ever come back in stock and playing Santa to already frazzled looking parents will warm your heart.

Will you stay at rock bottom, probably. But you can take solstice in knowing you drove others into the abyss.

I can relate to what a few of you said forsure.
Recently my girlfriend of one year died in her sleep beside me due to respitory faliure from fentanyl.
I knew something was up with her but I had no idea.
I mean we ordered pizza and watched a movie and I gave her a back rub.
It wasn't until I woke up for work and turned the lights on that I even realised.
I've had a rocky relationship with alcohol in the past, this last month though I've been drinking every day.
I know it's the furthest thing from a healthy grieving process but there really isn't much to live for right now.
Sometimes the poisons are all we got right.
In all seriousness though I'm going to try to stop.
I only had 4 beer today maybe tommorrow I'll try having only two.
I don't know why I'm even posting this... I should probobally go talk to a therapist lol.
I'll let you know how tommorrow goes.
If I can stay off the sauce id bet you could too

a reply to: MisterSpock

*exits lurker mode*

Like many others I've been pretty damn low myself. I also hit rock bottom at one point, but mentally. The reason was basically that I had not set myself any goals, but I had not received ANY guidance either. And so it went that I fell through the dreaded cracks. And just to note, this was early in my life. Had I been in the middle age range i don't know how I would've recovered. I started at a university first, but dropped out. Then I tried a college nearby, but gave up there also. I ended up locking myself in my room at my parents house playing online games. 12 hours + each day. I lost 22 lbs and felt like #. Until one day I just said # it, and decided to do something.

I moved to another city to start fresh, Nap sack on my back, and wearing ugly clothes. Already had a few friends there so that was my main reason for going. I got a crap job but stayed in there. Fast forward about 2 years and I was lucky enough to meet my better half. Both of us were poor (we had to split one beer on our date). From there things simply improved for each year. There's always crap along the way but you just have to do your best to dodge it. I started at a private school and improved my grades. I used up all my savings but it was worth every dime. I would go that route again in a heartbeat. Got my confidence up.

For what it's worth. Just wanted to let you know that you're not alone, and that there are many more people who struggle than we want to think. A few can thank themselves, others are not to blame at all. Doesn't matter really. Things are how they are.

Not sure what advice to give you other than trying to think of something you would like to do. Then put down the scotch and remote and google a bit what it would take to get there. It's extremely daunting at first but remember that it's one step at a time. It sounds cliche but it's true nonetheless. Maybe check out what type of jobs are out there. Right now there's a huge demand for cyber security experts (in my country at least), and so I jumped right on a BA for that.

Speaking for myself, I know finding a school with good teachers was paramount. Then you sort of build up from there. And again, do things incrementally. And try to map out other possible routes if possible (other interests worthy to pursue).

Just my two cents. Hope it's to some help.

*enters lurker mode*

a reply to: SupermassiveBlackHOLE

Jeez man. I'm sorry for your loss. Can only imagine what that's like. Hang in there and feel free to u2u me if you just need someone to talk to.

Inside, watching TV, drinking scotch? So I guess rock bottom looks different to everyone.
Your rock bottom sounds like a nice rest day to me!

originally posted by: MisterSpock

originally posted by: sine.nomine
MisterSpock, valedictorian of sadomasochism class of 2019. Wear it with pride, my friend.

I could tour the distilleries of scotland, I might even hold the distinction of being the first to make a bunch of scots utter the words "He's fun, but drinks way too much"

I'd actually want that distinction on my tombstone, those scots don't utter those words lightly.

I am living your life Misterspock around all those distilleries you love and "He's fun, but drinks way too much" was said to me while working around Britain at shopfitting , 12 beers plus drams every night for years

You should get a job working in a bar

a reply to: DictionaryOfExcuses

Thanks dictionary I appreciate.
1 beer so far today lol.
I would totally u2u you but I actually don't know how Haha!

originally posted by: SupermassiveBlackHOLE
a reply to: DictionaryOfExcuses

Thanks dictionary I appreciate.
1 beer so far today lol.
I would totally u2u you but I actually don't know how Haha!

Use the green head symbol under a members name and avatar but the white letter does not light up when you get a message due to a glitch

Thanks william

a reply to: MisterSpock


I’m curious as to why you define yourself as a monster?

Have you molested a child, killed someone?

Is you’re definition of monster really an out of work alcoholic?

It’s hard to give advice without all the facts but this is what I have:


If you did any of those horrible things, make amends, find god, and read the book A Purpose Driven Life.

If you were a victim of abuse: face it, and get help

If you’re just bored, depressed find your purpose. Get out there and start living.


A great job is good; a good character is Devine!


No more Scotch!

You can afford scotch, and have a place to binge watch full house. Whatever you’re going through suxs, but for some perspective there’s quite a bit further you could drop.

Put down the bottle, put down the remote. Go outside and interact with people, you’ll feel better. Maybe try helping someone else, it does wonders for your state of being.

a reply to: MisterSpock

Great song! a reply to: Sabrechucker

It's been 3 days or so now, dozens of episodes.

I haven't left the house except to buy more scotch.

I'm worried that I'm actually getting to the point where I believe I'm INSIDE the show and a member of the cast. I'm now fearful of leaving my house in case I start responding to people as if they are characters in the show.

This is all too much, it's making me have a panic attack...I need a drink.

a reply to: MisterSpock

I've been there.

My "cure", for me at least, was to quite simply get the heck up and do something.

The mind is like a wolf. If you keep feeding it with self pity and despair it will become stronger. But if you take it by the jaws and submit it to your will, to this inner wrath you have, it will become a wonderful tool. Now kick your mind's buttocks and put it into good use. Anything.

If the carefully taped box they put you in starts telling you "you're a monster", you chew at the box and you say, "deal with it."

originally posted by: MisterSpock

originally posted by: Lumenari
a reply to: MisterSpock

Take classes on something you've always been interested in.

Get a hobby that takes time and money.

Start a new business.

Invent something.

Write a book.

You're bored.

You are at that weird point in life where you have what you need but haven't figured out yet what you want out of life.

Fix that.

I could take classes on scotch.

My hobby is drinking scotch(and apparently watching fuller house), it costs money and takes time.

I could start a business that has something to do with scotch?

I could invent a new way of drinking scotch?

I can't read, seems like a prerequisite to writing.

I am bored.

Seems like you are pretty much telling me to keep doing what I'm doing......

Horrible advice....I expected better of you.

Exactly. Do what you love to do for a living and you’ll never have to work again. I’ve been doing a lot of hands-on research re: a masturbation career, but sperm banks and the porn biz don’t pay enough to get my nut. Still working hard on it though ... really hard.