posted on Nov, 15 2019 @ 02:06 PM
Ok, so lately I've been under alot of stress. The stress is what I'd consider above average in the percentile of a 100% range and I'm like at a
90% or higher in stress mode right now (who isn't though... right ?). This super stress has been going on for about 7 months or so now. Now before
these 7 months there was stress then too, but it like tripled or quadrupled in these last 7 months. At first I cried alot, was angry... ya know
normal emotional responses you'd expect in stress filled time periods. Then I got to a point that I could not cry anymore which was kinda awful.
I'd want tears, because they make me feel better. Crying for me is a super powerful release of pent up emotions that need to get out and not crying
is harmful. So i wanted the tears to roll but they weren't. They were all dried up and gone.
Now here recently though I've started to have bouts of hilarious thoughts that get me laughing hysterically. So now I've turned toward coping with
laughter. It's like I get a thought about something and I just can't contain myself.
An example, the other day it was very windy as I was driving down the road. The wind wouldn't relent and it was this way all day. I hate wind...
with a passion too. So i was like ugghh wind please stop. & being that we are in the season of fall, the leaves have made their way to the ground.
Well the wind kept picking up the leaves and blowing them around like they do but this time they blew the leaves in a straight line, like a parade,
in front of my vehicle, low to the ground not lifted up in the air. They hastily marched by, hundreds of them, waving at me. For real it was a
parade of leaves. They didn't blow in the whiper whirl twirling fashion you'd normally see. All the rubies, jades, emeralds, ambers and bronzes
running by in a straight line looking at me and waving, giving a nod in my direction. It was as if this was winds way of talking to me or something.
It made be smile but also it got me laughing so hard as I began the little story in my head that it brought tears to my face, I just couldn't contain
myself at that point. It came at a time when I really needed the laugh. So I call it a gift... sent my way when i really needed it. The wind was
talking to me I thought, and it was being kind of sarcastic too I thought, sending me a nod right after I asked it to stop. OMG I'm really losing it
now I was thinking.
These episodes of laughter are absolutely wonderful too, they get so emotionally charged I will laugh until i tear up and they make me feel so much
better so I'm not complaining about it at all. I've kinda labeled it my temporary loony laughter. & after the laughter gets so hard, here are the
tears I've been wishing for so I could release this pent up emotion. So what I feel is going on here is my mind has found a way to release the
I'm like by myself in my own mind and the thoughts are so funny and the laugh is genuinely good. So I call it the gift because its so needed right
now. One can just hope I'm not coming across as a loony tune to outsiders who may have to witness these laughter episodes. Gosh... wheh.
Anyways... if anyone has any of their own laughter stories they would be great to hear. All I can do is hope I'm not losing it mentally and this is
a normal coping mechanism my mind is engaging.