a reply to: Oleandra88
I genuinely appreciate you spending the time talking
I really do feel that our time is one of the most precious and valuable things we can give to
Infinity is a wild concept! We can think of all the irrational numbers between 1 & 2, and then we can realize the same goes for 2 & 3, and 3 & 4, and
4 & 5, off into infinity
Its a bit like the "basic" numbers provide a baseline for our perception of scale. Theres a neat video on this that Ill
try to find, and Ill send you the link.
I think in many ways, us humans are pattern recognition machines. But, not too many realize that we can use that to our advantage and design it
ourselves too. For guitar, I relate patterns to little pieces of language. Looking at what we play as a sort of language and vocabulary isnt
particularly uncommon, but the patterns themselves kind of have a "feel" all their own to me. So, if I play fingers 1, then 4, then 3, the movement of
those fingers has its own unique experience even with no sound. Hard to explain.. But its how I do everything from remember songs to how I link
phrases together. I imagine the "feel" of playing the pattern with no sound, then figure out where I want to play it on the fretboard.
Its interesting to me that you get "all emotional and watery eyed" when playing for others. Ive only played with other people around a couple times,
but I always get shaky. My mind is calm and peaceful and everything feels normal.. until I go to play. Then, my mind still is calm and peaceful and
everything feels normal, but my damn hands shake!
In thinking about it, when we play for others, we really are sharing a direct connection to parts of our being and person that are very personal and
intimate. I think we get used to it if we do it enough, but Im certainly not there!
The meditation you describe there is one of my favorites. My take on it is that I will start at my feet and relax every little bit and piece, let them
be how they are rather than what I think they are, and then work all the way up past the top of my head. Its like creating a blank canvas for anything
we want to do afterwards, if we "do" anything at all.
I was.. disappointed to hear about your uncle. I always enjoyed his contributions. I lost my dad a couple years ago, and my dog of 15 years earlier
this year. I dont have any regrets there, I learned that particular lesson from all the deaths before them, but its still very hard. I still find
myself grabbing my phone to talk with my dad about.. whatever.. but I cant anymore. I actually seemed to be doing ok with it, until I lost my pup.
Something changed that day, and Im honestly not sure it was for the better.
You are right though, time marches on. The love we show "our people" (I consider my dogs people too) just makes life so beautiful. Its painful too. I
use to think that death made life more special, and in a sense I still do, but there are people who I could truly spend eternity with and it would
just get more special every moment. And hey, maybe thats exactly what will happen after we die. Hopefully thats a long way off for me (Im in mid 30s),
but we never know.
And, no matter how great I think meditation is, or how passionate I am about guitar.. I will drop everything to spend time with the people I love,
every time. Thats powerful stuff.