a reply to: ketsuko
I really think it is Kets..
I think there are conspiracies and shenanigans afoot here, but Im putting those aside.
In my daily life, I am in enough constant high levels of pain that I flutter on the edge of passing out on a weekly basis. It may not be every single
day, but its still tough.
The closest I get to understanding this behavior is when someone is generous and simply does something nice because.. well.. my life is hard. I do try
my best not to complain, for a variety of reasons, but its the truth. Sometimes people do things to cater to me and my "issues," specifically.
When I bought my guitar amp, the builder and I had been talking for a while and my health came up. Its a huge part of my life (shocker), so it happens
in longer conversations. When it came time to pay, he ended up giving me something like 30% off.
My reaction? Genuinely emotional, humbled, and grateful. It wasnt a HUGE sum of money, but what does that matter? I still tear up a bit when I think
about it, and Im not even remotely ashamed of it.
I guess I have
met and talked with people that view me less than human because of my health. Even there though, I can "get" it. I may not like
it, and find it sociopathic and cold. But, I can make sense of the dehumanization.
Maybe we are seeing a mental illness specific and proportional to societal stability? If so, trying to make sense of it is a fool's errand. Likewise,
we probably shouldn't encourage it as normal. And, we certainly
shouldn't base a political/social group on it.
One thing we can be certain about is that Im giving it entirely too much thought
But I dont think Im alone in finding this sort of thing equal
parts fascinating, baffling, concerning, and disturbing.