Over the rest of 2016 to early 2017, I self identified as a secret messiah. Sitting at parks, walking alone, lost in thought and imagination before
slowly coming back to this reality and accepting that I am just another human going through the same # and abandoned the spiritual, divine, religious,
becoming a serious nihilist, writing hundreds of poems about the cruel absurd nature of reality and the prison of self. During this time, i developed
a serious case of anxiety and stress, gender dysmorphia, etc and found myself unable to work, though I mustered up the energy to enroll in a teaching
degree at uni in 2018.
SKIPPING TO NOW
Two months ago right before end of semester, after nearly three years of NO manic energy, I found myself back in that realm (due to a stack of over
due assignments and lack of sleep), where thoughts and meaning connected seamlessly, where ideas and enlightenment about previous experience brought
revelation, only to find myself back in the same mental institution, however, only for a week. It was during this time, that i suffered a huge ego
dealt brought on by a realizing the importance of shivaic practice. I had a huge iconic mustache people knew me by, and shaved it off along with me
the idea of who I was. It during this time in hospital, that the passion and desire i once had to save the planet, be a light worker and healer,
surged through me again only this time I was fully aware, that there was no more dark night of the soul, rather with fire in my eyes and the sword of
my mouth, sharpest as it has ever been, I will do everything within my power to make sure that humanity and all life on planet earth has a future,
clean, free from war, death, poverty, sickness, essentially the kingdom of god IS NOW, and all the heavenly hosts want to join us and trade stories,
and songs, sharing art from other worlds, bringing their dish of individuality to the banquet table where we all feast in unity.
What is the meaning for the second incarnation of christ?
I believe, through the universal life energy of reincarnation or a form of recycling of the essence of consciousness (energy), aka (DEATH) that we are
all each other, living as each other, each like individual molecules and atoms, affecting change with whoever we interact with bringing new things. I
see that in the bible, Jesus refers to john the baptist as the reincarnation of the prophet Elijah in Matthew 11:14. This sparked alot of thought in
the past that it might be possible that we truly are the people from past lives, multiplying and growing like a single body, progressing into the
allegorical model of a kingdom of heaven on earth. I tend to think of people having a case of forgotten identity, unaware of what cycle they in and
how to end it and escape the illusion of the matrix.
Is the afterlife a dream? Is that all we see when we die. How do we not know that the tunnel at death is just another womb opening in which our memory
is wiped clean and we are given a new name.
'He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches To him who overcomes, to him I will give some of the hidden manna, and I will
give him a white stone, and a new name written on the stone which no one knows but he who receives it."
Now in continuing, I believe that in all my research and questioning, we reach an inevitable conclusion, one reached by the consensus of most cults,
religions of beliefs throughout history that each have merit and claim to influence over nations and civilizations development, however, the problem
they all have is that they are still attached to the idea of titles, of wealth, of lands, of prestige and power. They are so trapped thinking they are
free by serving their god(s), from texts that were written by men, like I myself had to learn, however, if I was god, or Jesus, and was coming back to
a world on my shiny space vehicle with the other races legions to check in on humanities progress, and somehow found that they perverted, corrupted,
abused and twisted my teachings, to benefit their selfish agendas, not only ruining this world, but destroying the lives of countless souls, I
wouldn't be flipping tables, I would be vindication messiah, turning the world upside down like the good book says he will.
Heres where i take my stand and begin to say.
WHY DO WE NEED BOOKS
WHY DO WE NEED OUR OUTCOME AND DESTINY GOVERNED BY THE WORDS OF OTHERS
WHY DO WE NEED TO EXPECT THE END TO COME LIKE IT IS FORETOLD, AND CLOTHE OURSELVES IN MOUNTAINS
WHY CANT WE DICTATE AND WRITE A NEW BOOK INSTEAD, WHICH TELLS OF HUMANITIES COLLECTIVE TRIUMPH OF HOW WE CREATED THE NEW KINGDOM, THE NEW EARTH
ESTABLISHING PEACE FOREVER AND EVER.
would we still need a god?
would we still need titles?
would we still need worship?
would we still need religion?
would we still need practices?
would we still need tradition?
would we still need superstition?
Or will will push off towards the heavens in search of new homes for future refugees when the world is overwhelmed, we have more than enough to
provide for one another, forever and ever, as long as we love, and help, and bless, and protect one another as though we were the body of Christ.
This is the son of man, signing out for now.
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