I’m sitting here at work thinking to myself.
In 2 hours it will be July 19, and I will be 37 years old.
3 freaking years away from 40.
I don’t feel like I’m 37. I don’t feel old.
Yet I have been using the phrase “when I was young”...
I remember when I turned 23. I had a breakdown what I would equate to a mid life crisis.
I panicked thinking if I died tomorrow, how will people remember me?
I reflected on all the bad or questionable garbage I did when I was younger.
How would people remember me?
That was honestly one of my motivators to become the person I am now.
Once I calmed down, I told myself that going forward I would be the best person I could be, everyday for the rest of my life.
And I’ve lived by that ever since.
Every single day, I strive to be the very best husband, father, friend and stranger, that I can be.
If I see someone in need when I’m driving, my wife will verify this, I will stop and I will help.
If someone comes to me with a problem or an issue, I will do whatever I can to help them make it right.
Within reason of course, I’m not buying people houses or anything.
But I will see to it that you have a roof over your head, and a meal in your gut.
I want to be remembered as the person I try to be every day.
Not the person I once was.
Thinking back to that day 14 years ago... wow 14 years...
I laugh at the kid I was, thinking 23 was old and all those mistakes the years before.
But I think I needed to “feel old” in order to make the changes in my life that I have.
Looking back over the past years since that change, and I’m proud of the person I’ve become and the accomplishments I have made in life in such
So, at 23 years old, that was the first time I felt old.
And it scared me enough to make some pretty drastic changes - but all for the better.
What age were you when you first felt old?
Or have you had that feeling yet?
edit on 18-7-2019 by Macenroe82 because: (no reason given)