The Shed 23

originally posted by: kinglizard
kinda a tough day in therapy today, these days are always challenging. trauma therapy is a long road to walk.

I believe you, it must be hard. But maybe it will eventually benefit you very much, if you just keep going. They say nothing worth achieving comes easy. I am in the middle of that right now also.

Wishing you brighter days

originally posted by: kinglizard
kinda a tough day in therapy today, these days are always challenging. trauma therapy is a long road to walk.

So, what is trauma therapy like? I would imagine they ask you a lot of questions and try to give you coping skills. I wish you the very best on your journey through the trauma you are facing. Sit a while with us in the Shed and relax with a pixie drink.

a reply to: Finspiracy
You seem to be doing well so far Fin. I know how difficult this must be for you, but like you said to Kinglizard, "just keep going".

FIN: that's great, glad you are getting some help too. I've been doing it for the past, well almost two years now, every week. I have a lot of stuff, not just one trauma so it gets complicated. I've made progress for sure but it's triggering and exhausting. Wishing you the best Fin...

Night Star: I go to a trauma therapist that specializes in EMDR therapy. It's one of the most effective ways of dealing and processing trauma but you do have to, in your own mind go back to the scenes. Then your mind starts jumping from trauma to trauma because they are stored in the place. It's really heavy work that usually takes me out for a couple of days. We don't do EMDR every time, between we do talk therapy.

thanks for inviting me in and making me feel welcome

a reply to: kinglizard

I'm glad to hear that you have had progress.
Whatever works for you and is beneficial, stick with those things.

Hey guys.

Sorry I've not been around. Been dealing with some medical issues which I won't go into detail about here.

Hoping you all are doing okay!

a reply to: eriktheawful

Hi! Nice seeing you. I hope you're feeling better.

a reply to: eriktheawful

Hi erik, good to see you. I hope that you are recovered or at least starting to recover. As long as you can still (eventually) play your trombone.

a reply to: eriktheawful

Finally! I've been thinking of you Hun. Praying for you and sending healing energy your way my friend. Much love and a big hug!

First I want to welcome all the lurkers and new folks to the Shed.
Stick around, it will be good for you, right?

This just in...

Well, from yesterday I mean.
The results are back from all my fun filled x-rays and bloodletting. The winner is... nothing. Meaning nothing seems out of place with all the testing. This means I am to see specialist about my heart, my ankle, and my seizures.

The fun part of doing this is to call the insurance company first to verify what doctors I can see. As always dad will be an issue with all of these as he will want to go for his useless reasons. Therefore I am putting this off. Read on...

As I've said before, the new meds I'm on leave me somewhere between first gear and neutral for wanting to do anything. I have trash building up around me on my desk as my trash can is overflowing. The desire to do something about it is not in me. I think part of my issue is that I was expecting the doctor I saw last week to tell me I needed to go to the hospital for treatment. As painful (in more ways than one) that US hospitals can be perhaps deep down I was looking forward to it as a way to get out of this prison cell of a life for a few days.

Ten hours since I last posted and no one has showed up to the Shed.

Just for that I will remove the sign I carry on my back saying "Does not play well with others".

a reply to: LookingForABetterLife


Not much to report other than my phone line and internet crashed yesterday. So I've been off line for over 24 hours. Luckilly I managed some adhoc repairs and using my son's wireless device to read, lurk and reply.

Linesman won't be out till next Tuesday. Bit of bush fun.

Kind regards,

bally

Hi everyone. Just popping in to say hello an--

FART

Well. Isn't that embarrassing.

originally posted by: Night Star
a reply to: Finspiracy
You seem to be doing well so far Fin. I know how difficult this must be for you, but like you said to Kinglizard, "just keep going".

Yeah little elf woman. I feel really lost. I have drank really big time for 22 years. Now it is not there anymore. Yes, i have a few beers but it is now 2 weeks since i started this new med and my cravings for alcohol have significantly reduced. I don't think about drinking all the time. Paranoia at public places is gone. And... so am i... Yes, i have some beers right this moment but it is half because i am thirsty and half because i am used to it but i get nothing out of it.

Elfie... I have lost my identity. My life does not circle around alcohol anymore and therefore, i don't know who i am.

originally posted by: DictionaryOfExcuses
Hi everyone. Just popping in to say hello an--

FART

Well. Isn't that embarrassing.

FART

I was amused by your post. I needed your post. (yes, i am very childish)

a reply to: Finspiracy

I'm pretty much there with you. My "cocktail" was a delicate balance of tobacco, caffeine, and a smokable herb that grows like a weed. I cut it all out a few days ago and boy let me tell you the world is brighter, louder, stinkier, and generally about ten times more "in my face" than it has been for a good while. Not all bad, mind you, just a bit different than I'm used to.

a reply to: DictionaryOfExcuses

Somehow i sense strength in you. Maybe you use humor as a weapon. It is a strong weapon. Let the world hit you in the face, maybe it will throw a pancake covered with strawberries and cream so it will be all good.

I feel like i am going to spend this day online, mostly at ATS. Too much human interaction lately and i am an introvert. Yesterday was hard. It started out good, i went to my best friend's apartment. I thanked him for being super supportive when i fell about a month ago. Had to go to a hospital in an ambulance due to acute alcohol poisoning and they called my mom, she being the closest relative. Woke up in an out-of-this-world hangover to read a text from my mom that she does not want to hear anything from me anymore because my stupid behavior. I said to my friend that if there is anything he needs from me, i will do it. He said "Tonni!" (tonni means a thousand money units, not described, tonni is just a thousand money) and i replied "okay then, i will somehow arrange a thousand Venezuelan or other super low currency for you." Then we laughed and watched the latest pirates of the Caribbean.

Then it turned out hard because our mutual friend showed up with an unknown dude. And the unknown dude was wasted like... a wasted human. I had to carry him to bathroom and back, and he was bigger than me so my muscles hurt a bit right now.

I... I really miss my mom.

"If life closes a door in front of you
Open it wide open again
It is a door
And that is how doors work"

a reply to: DictionaryOfExcuses

Hi everyone. Just popping in to say hello an-- FART Well. Isn't that embarrassing.

Do you play D&D?

a reply to: Finspiracy

Thanks Finn. I don't always feel strong, especially these past few weeks.

It sounds like you're saying that drinking has been disruptive in your life. Did that feel like it happened all at once, or little by little?

I'll be checking in here on and off all day so I'm looking forward to chatting.