It is happening all over the West now (I include Japan in this). In Japan they have a pandemic of males who will not leave their rooms and
It was reported even back in 2013 by the BBC,
As many as a million young people in Japan are thought to remain holed up in their homes - sometimes for decades at a time. Why?
Recently I saw it being reported again and the problem appears to have grown even bigger,
Pictures Reveal the Isolated Lives of Japan’s Social Recluses A photographer explores the hidden world of the hikikomori, and the human
bonds that draw them out.
In Japan they call it "Hikikomori". We have it in the West too. I think I am suffering from it and have been doing since 2005. Since I had a huge
breakdown in 2005 I have become totally reclusive and have gone like Tron into the digital realm to escape the "criminal world" of corruption and
exploitation. If you are a working class boy like me from a verry humble place with an honest heart but a problem upbringing (with all the scars)
there is little hope of you ever escaping the "boots" of the corrupt in one way or another. When I had my breakdown it was because I could no longer
control the passion of disgust and honesty I felt and I started having outbursts of inappropriate honesty. In a sense I am doing that here on this
site because I am not able to disgusie the honesty of my expression and do not even want to as the world is censored enough.
I have a great life. I do go out walking all the time. I walk usually about six miles a day to the local supermarket and back and that is about it. I
do all my other shopping online. I am living a digital life. All my extra money is going on digital related goods. I still learn (far more than I ever
used to). I have become an "info sponge", weaving the world together to keep getting the bigger picture, so I am not guilty of not seeing the forest
for the trees.
I have a very creative life with not much money, but enough to buy the digital software and basic hardware to operate the software I need. I am not
one for fancy things. I buy quality that lasts for a long time. I live a budget life, always trying to minimize bills so I have more to put towards
buying the amazing new tools for my creativity. I am very good in my chosen field with lots of experience now, but there is no way for me to make
money in it as it is a very elitist market.
My interest is the only thing I live for. That makes it worth hanging around on the earth for and putting up with all the trash and bad experiences of
this hard reality. I think my lifestyle is a reaction. It followed the final breaking point where I could not stand what was happening to me or the
world any longer. Essentially I have taken the world emotional hostage. I have become a master of my game. It is my way of making it change. I am
giving it a headache because it treated me bad and still does. I will keep giving it a headache too until it can evolve to a civilized enough state so
I can fit in with it.
I used to get very bullied in every social situation, In work too. I am very unique and people quickly notice me. Whenever I am threatened my fight or
flight instinct kicks in in ways that are very extreme now. That is because they got so damaged through life. It is a kind of PTSD. My extreme
behaviour is one final attempt to demonstrate to my "captors" that they have got me flicking hairs like a tarantula because it is my only protection.
After that it is either bite and fight or run away if I can. If I can run away I do run away.
I can no longer stand the challenges of public society. I can't fit into the PC straitjacket and put on the act. I am core honesty of purpose and
emotion. I am ultra intense. I would do people's heads in if they had to be my colleague, be sure of it.
When I am socially challenged beyond my ability (by your standards I am very easily triggered by certain triggers) I "flick hairs". I am constantly in
an anxious state. When I am by myself I have none of the pressure that triggers me. Through a screen I can handle anything because it can't hurt me. I
can either choose to look and experience it or not. Essentially, you are my problem. Ironic, because you would think I am the problem. As much as I am
your problem you are mine, please understand that.
I never parade my riches, but I have many. They are my secret pearls. They would not even appear as pearls to you. People will never know how rich I
am or how beautiful the gentle reality I have created for myself is. In my home Jesus rules and it is a safe, gentle and intelligent place to live.
Out there it is murder, terrorism, rape, slaughter, exploitation, greed, and all manner of other rampaging demons of human disease. I wonder just who
is right and who is wrong here?
My sister once gave me a birthday card of a tortoise with his little head poking out his shell and she said she was giving me a message with that. She
was right. However, she does not know that inside my shell it is bliss. Out there it is a hell my eyes can no longer stand seeing. Out there people
behave so aggressively that I get inappropriately upset very quickly.
This is very complex. Hitler thought people like me were better off gassed and society be rid of them. I am feeling so refined and civilized. I feel
that I have achieved my aim of not hurting other people in this life and being true and gentle. It appears that it is socially inappropriate to be
like me though. I hide because it is my only survival option in YOUR WORLD! It ain't my world.
My world is in here, listening to nice music and feeling as safe as you can on this earth with no bad vibes, arguments or aggressive abusing anything.
Keep ye far hence from my fort, Satan! Lol!
I know also there are absolutely loads of us now, from the basements of the U.S to the bedsits and flats of London to the Tokyo apartments. I think
the digital onslaught is manufacturing us, a dime a dozen. It is making way for the machines. How far the Creator will let it go I do not know, but
obviously evolution is taking us down this road. We are the new human entities who don't want to have children any more because the world sucks and
there are too many of us anyhow. We can live in our own minds and experience the world mentally and physically in a new way that is ever evolving and
learn at a speed never before possible. We are going to have a huge learning curve of experience now in the world. The call of intelligence has come
to us, just in time to possibly salvage something from the human dump we have made of this world.
The computer is predictable. It entices us because it is safe emotionally. It will never abuse us or play head games with us (unless we want it to). I
am thinking evolution is finding that bit useful because all the head game stuff is very destructive to us psychically as me and the other hikikomori
"sufferers" have proved by being so useless at operating in that old world. Should they call us hikikomori "sufferers"? It could just as easily be
hikikomori "shamans", if the future and evolution decide it likes our way as the machines replace us doing all the horrible repetitive stuff that made
us miserable having to work forty plus hours a week. Time to play, humanity? Do you want to play?
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