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originally posted by: heymang
My bud passed away last week and right before I had to go out of town. Its funny cos the airbnb I'm staying at had a foyer you could go out back and smoke and there was a statue of a dog that looked just liked my buddy at the same place where I happened to be staying! Makes you wonder.
I look after disabled parents so to go on a break would be difficult but it is planned for in a few months.
originally posted by: Dwoodward85
a reply to: heymang
Sorry for your loss, words help but there's nothing like experiencing the loss and having that sense that something major has gone from your life. I still struggle with it at times although some have helped (Night Star has been on the other end of a message almost every day or so and has helped) I try to deal with it anyway I can and I can completely understand the feeling when seeing a statue of a dog, I'm just trying to force myself through life. The quiet moments are the worst, when you're alone and your mind just starts to wonder off and their faces pop into your head at the most random moments. My example is from just a few days ago, I was having a wonder through a local park pondering the stuff I have to do in the next few weeks (thanks to bills I've had to take up a third job, delivering leaflets, it's only six or so hours a week but those hours are usually me hours but that's out of the window thanks to rent increases and other junk) anyway, walking through the park for a few minutes break and she popped into my head, I got a little teary but managed to pull myself together, so the mourning hasn't really gone from me yet.
I'll add one thing, I hate with a passion when people say things to me like "Well she lived a good life" or "Well she had a life that most other dogs would love to have" I know they're trying to be nice but I really hate hearing that.
Anyway, I really hope you get through the harder parts and reach that moment when you can look back on them and not cry or break down, I'm there other than the odd slip.