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originally posted by: r0xor
It wasn't supernatural, that much I can give you my opinion on. It sounds like anxiety, possibly with a panic mechanism thrown in, triggered by the stress of being involved in the family situations emotionally which is normal if you care to the level that I'm sure you do.
Having thoughts of your dad passing away is a part of that. The grandmother is about to pass away, he's pushing himself extra hard with the situations while working full time at an older age. You want to be the one to give the eulogy at his funeral, even subconciously prepare for it in an anxious emotional moment while you're attempting to sleep.
originally posted by: Assassin82
Having trouble sleeping tonight. Usually I read myself to sleep. But tonight, I just couldn’t fall asleep. To be transparent, I’ve had sleep issues in the past but never falling asleep. I’ve suffered sleep paralysis and woken up to sleep hallucinations. The hallucinations are always spiders crawling around in various places and disappear within moments of my realization of my surroundings. I haven’t had sleep paralysis in quite sometime. Between the two of them I’ve learned to recognize them and even control aspects of the sleep paralysis. What happened tonight was neither. I can confidently say that.
Around 11pm, I finally started to quite my mind and find some rhythmic breathing. I dozed off briefly before I woke back up. I did some more reading and spent about an hour trying to fall back asleep. During that hour, things started to get weird. My brain went hyperactive and I couldn’t slow it down. I was thinking about tragedies happening within my family. To be fair, I relate this to my families personal struggles as of late.
My Dad recently broke character and told me he had a bit of a mental health breakdown. He’s not committed or anything, but he is seeing a therapist and he’s essentially retired from work because of it. In short, he’s taken care of my grandmother/his mother for a year and half since she had a medical incident leaving her permanently hospitalized. He’s had to deal with all of it mostly on his own. Without spending time breaking it all down, he deserves a medal for all he’s had to do for her in spite of his own brother leaving my grandmother for dead. All the while, working full time.
Before that happened he basically cared for my brother and his two kids for several years. They lived with him. My brother, at the time, was lacking the skills to care for himself, let alone two kids. He was a self-centered, angry, 38 year old man-child who blamed the world for his inadequacies. My dad deserves a lifetime of gold and riches for doing all he did for them. (This is a lengthy post so I’m trying to summarize these two stressful points in his life)
Now, my grandmother is stable and comfortable. At 95 years old she may still outlive us all. My brother has since received his associates degree and is living on his own in Missouri. There are still stresses,but nothing like what my dad has had to endure. I’ve been afraid it was all too much for him to handle for months. I live 1,000 miles from him and can do little to help him other than be an ear for him to vent too.
Tonight, at exactly 12:30 I awoke to a sense of doom. I felt what I can only describe as a presence pass through me. It shook me. I was awake, coherent, and terrified. It was not sleep paralysis and it was not a hallucination. I then laid there for some time trying to get a grasp on what was happening. My brain was in overdrive again. I couldn’t stop it from bouncing from topic to topic. Then, suddenly, and without provocation,I started to write my dads eulogy in my head. I practiced speaking it in front of an imaginary audience at a funeral. I defined what a father was and spoke stories of everything we all loved about him.
For 10 minutes, I laid there awake and unable to stop it from happening. I had this genuine feeling of sadness and mourning. I got up, went to get a glass of water, and decided I had to type this up somewhere.
Feeling something pass through you like that is enough to question yourself but to lose control of my own thoughts like that right after it...I can’t explain it. Perhaps it was an evolution of sleep paralysis. Perhaps it’s as simple as my real life concern for my fathers well being. Perhaps it’s somethkng in the realm of paranormal.i dont know. All I know is the entire chain of events was completely foreign to me and has left me a bit out of sorts.
Anyone experienced anything like that before?
originally posted by: LLoyd45
My first thought after your post was anxiety, but coupled with hallucinations it didn't quite fit. I know you believe you were awake when you experienced the sensation that something passed through you, but sleep disorders can be tricky in that way. I'd hazard a guess that you're suffering from a sleep parasomnia.
Medications can often have strange side effects on some individuals; so if you've started using any new medications, you might want to bring this matter to your physician's attention. Do you have a family history of Narcolepsy or mental illness?
I'm not trying to discount or minimize what your saying, but it's always best to explore other possible causes than the paranormal. Hope you get sleeping better soon!
originally posted by: Weagle
Not to get too far off topic, but you're the only other person I've ever seen mention hallucinating spiders. This has happened to me for years. Only when waking up from sleep, usually in the middle of the night (when it's too dark for me to even see what I think I'm seeing). I've learned to just live with it, and gotten much better at telling myself it's not real even though it's scary. I had no idea this was a thing! I thought I was the only person this happened to, and had no idea why. Now I'm googling, and it sounds like it's not nearly as uncommon as I thought. So strange to see you post something I haven't ever heard anyone else talk about that I've been experiencing all this time.