posted on Dec, 28 2018 @ 02:12 PM
Well I got a call yesterday from the center my dad was at that he passed away December 26th in the evening.
I never got to go see him or speak to him after looking for him for 15 years. I have been a bit upset because I have so many questions that will never
be answered. I use to think that some day I will have those questions answered but now I know it will never happen. I didn't know my father, he was in
my life until I was 5. I spoke to him last in about 2002 and then we lost contact. I did speak to my Aunt, his sister and she said he chose to be a
ghost and not in our lives. His family doesn't have anything nice to really say about him. I don't expect them to tell me he was this wonderful
person. I just want to know who he was, good or bad. I sent him flowers on December 15th with a card telling him he was always loved and thought of.
The lady at the center told me he did get them and they made him smile and he kept them next to his bed. I also had them show him a picture of my son
and I which she said he also enjoyed but he didn't want to speak to me. I was the only one who reached out to him, my sister never called and my
brother was too young to ever know him and didn't care to. I always wanted him in my life and my aunt says he probably stayed away because he knew it
was for the best, not sure what that means but I kind of understand.
So I called the place he was sent to after he passed, there was no money for a funeral so the state takes over. I am not sure how that works out. I
know I didn't know him but he was still my dad and nobody should die alone like that. I think that's what is bothering me most because he didn't have
to be alone. They told me that he will stay there for two weeks and the first week of January the state will take it from there, not sure what that
means honestly. They have some of his belongings which I asked if I could have. I believe it was a wallet and some clothing items he came in with.
They told my his sisters only asked for the key to the house and nothing else. They didn't even claim him...that is pretty sad.
Sorry if this is all over the place. I spent so much of my life wondering about my dad and then I find him only for him to die weeks later. It's
amazing what i have found out NOW after the fact where before I had nothing. All I needed was a location and I would have been able to find
Edit to add: I am a female
I have pink script! I need to put some lipstick on Thor
I will reply to everyone shortly, thank you very much.
edit on 12/28/2018 by mblahnikluver because: (no reason given)