a reply to: Raggedyman
And yet you accused me of Heresy is that not judgement.
You know when Jesus picked up that stone and looked at the crowd he was LOOKING at THEM not at the woman they had accused, you know that he knew
there crime's without judging them and simply made a very important point and had one whom was guilty thrown a stone it is at him that Jesus would
have thrown his.
There is one thing worse than the guilty in Jesus sight and that is the hypocrite whom know's his guilt and yet still throws his stone.
In England we have a very basic saying based upon this, He whom lives in a glass house shouldn't throw stone's.
If you believe as I do in our lord then you are linked to me as my brother in him regardless.
First time I took the bread and wine it was to me NOT bread and wine but I truly believed I was taking my lord into me and wanted to commune with him
over what to me was a world ending matter so as I took him I gave myself to him.
The wafer touched my tongue and my body began to oscillate like it was vibrating or shaking almost like static electricity running through me, the
wine touched my lip's and something outside did not want it to pass into me and I know it was not my Lord that wanted this but must have been his
enemy because as it touched my lip's and at the exact instant it touched my tongue I felt a cold sensation like a blade made of ice pass through the
back of my neck and through it, I was much to my utter shock and horror in three part's at the same time, one felt very heavy and was falling or being
dragged down, one was rising and felt extremely light and as they separated from me the sensation of tri-locality passed and I found myself in a state
of shock right were I had been all along but two parts of me were taken by whatever that enemy was.
Before that I had a number of strange experiences, one I saw the ship that Ron Wyatte and I believe to be Noah's ark, it was white by the way with a
long house atop it peaked roof running the length of the boar, two square window's and a door like a child might draw but very real and filled with an
utter and terrifying darkness - well it does reference the Lord covering you under his wing's or shadow (Dependent upon translation) in the book of
After the sacrament I experienced another vision, I was somewhere VERY dark, not pitch black but devoid of light nonetheless and filled with a dark
mist, looking up from the ground I saw a ladder - I am not claiming it is My ancestor Jacob's ladder but there it was and it reached up beyond my
ability to see becoming a tiny line in the sky, were it rose the sky lightened and there were lighter - not bright but brighter - cloud's around it, I
walked up to it my body there exactly like my body here but in it's prime and somehow distant feeling not numb just separate like I was not fully
connected to it, the ladder had stay's about a little over two feet apart and the rung's were about the same distance apart from one another, it was
made of ancient wood that felt solid like iron or stone and had very fine hairline crack's along the grain, there were knot's but they were flush to
the stay's and the rung's, the rung's seemed not joined but grown from the stay's and each rung was different except in shape and size by which they
were identical, I climbed desperate to seek the lord's help for someone else - not for myself this is important I had no self motive for being there -
and reached only the third rung when I was pulled or lifted UP staggering as I tried to climb but instead finding myself on a flat surface.
I dared not lift my head and felt a great and tremendous weight as of shame or guilt and it was unbearable to feel that weight and all I could ask
without Daring to look up was "Lord Please Look After Her" then I stepped backward intent upon and succeeding upon climbing back down the ladder which
I had begun to climb, I was only able to climb one rung before snapping back to this older and less fit body here on this earth.
Once I had an ecstasy but this was many years before I took the sacrament.
I was standing in the back garden and loving God in my heart I felt a need to look up and there for the briefest instant I saw three incredibly huge
golden cruciform's in the sky, they were huge and felt incredibly distant as if between or even beyond the stars, they were squarish solid shapes and
seemed to be made of golden light and though I saw them for the briefest instant they burned themselves into my mind as I saw them.
I have had a few other experiences.
The Lord is not just an academic word game HE is very real, more real than here and this and you or me.