So let's say, for the sake of argument (and the current state of culture - a function of history) that the alpha of our human experience is trauma,
and the omega is what you have to do to survive the mental breakdown that traumatic affects release in you.
The classic symbol for trauma is the flood, which requires some form of rest - Noah, in Hebrew, Noach, which means rest. How do you find rest when you
are being flooded from within? Is it not - the feeling of being overwhelmed by affect - not akin to drowning? The system that is being overwhelmed is
the vagal nerve complex - as the vagus nerve regulates the heart's sinoatrial node, and hence, how you could in reality "scare someone to death" via
overwhelming their vagus-sinoatrial nerve complex.
But to return to my story. Being flooded from within is the experience that results from the breakdown of the autonomic nervous systems fundamentally
oppositional structure: the HPA axis (cortisol, adrenaline) and the neurochemistry associated with it - dopamine, norepinephrine, serotonin - is
"opposed" by the dorsal vagal complex, supported by the periaqueductal grays dynorphin, enkephalin, and other endorphins. One system activates feeling
and motion in the brain-mind-body, whereas the other one relaxes. These are the sympathetic and parasympathetic nervous systems.
So drowning is what losing the control of the other system feels like. Sympathetic explodes into activity, and the parasympathetic, ever-so important,
and yet misunderstood by most people. Between these two systems lies the special mammalian evolution of the ventral vagus complex, which includes the
nucleus ambiguus (ambiguous nucleus - strange name) and its connections with the orbitofrontal cortex. When the parasympathetic fails, because of some
fail-safe occurring a bit higher up in the solitary nucleus (also a brainstem site), the PAG lets out its "zoning out" hormones, and the person fades
away, no longer real, once a self, and no longer a self.
But if keeping the self, and enjoying life, and relaxing into existence, into the present with others, is something you want to do (that's what I
would prefer) then you cannot let yourself be consumed by feeling, and thus lose your ego. In order to keep your ego, however, you have to appreciate
my usage of this word to mean "consciousness of self and its intentions". Not ego, as in, 'selfish', but ego, in contrast to that unconscious
dimension of ourselves which is more like an "image", from which a light refracts off into a singular, linear form, shaped for the sequential
time-based mode of language.
In order to keep this, you must follow the Biblical directive, since it genuinely describes the archetypal dynamic of our biosemiotic form. Thus, if
you seek to exist, to "stay above the water", you must prepare for the world around you. In relation to your sense of the priority of Being - the
Being of the Universe which precedes you and shaped your form - you submit to building yourself an ark for existence - of building yourself a word
(another meaning for this word in Heb. is "word", as well as "nature"); you submit because you see an obvious problem in being insane; in opposing the
flow and so creating entropy - suffering - which carries with it a falsely appealing 'excess' which wrongully takes up our faith - because it can only
hurt us in the end.
Whatever the ancient "Hebrews" were about, its hard to know them through the generations of needy humans that evolved their own specific agendas
vis-a-vis the body of this text. All I can know and say for certain is this: these humans understood the nature of our condition, and in being good
humans, deposited these meanings to guide subsequent generations, albeit, in a form, which, from todays perspective, seems needlessly and even
gratuitously metaphorical, and lacking the a value that a more descriptive, literal language of understanding, such as the scientific perspective,
being more mature and precise in its truth claims, can circumnavigate via our linear understandings that the natural works through regular and
repeating laws, and indeed, contains a basic form around the number three. The most abstract way of thinking of conceiving this Threeness was
pronounced by Hegel, but Hegel's own dissociative disorder prevented him from recognizing its proper functioning in a form that directly reflects our
own embodied evolution in the world, as constituted by enaction of intentions which are constrained beforehand by the safety-threat considerations of
a reflexive attention - of what matters, and is made to matter, as a matter of survival. The genes of past evolutionary successes precede us - and I
don't mean the cliché hunter-gather situations that most anthropologists focus on, but on the fact that the evolution of human life has always bee
the evolution of the human minds relation to other human minds, and how they come to understand one another vis-à-vis the third of the ecological
context - the historical and climatological circumstance. The teaching mechanisms are trauma and stabilities, with stabilities being carried as
tradition, and trauma transforming traditions by forcing a movement into a more sophisticated adjacent possible.
What is love - the omega, but that love? If were going to be completely honest with ourselves, disease, suffering, and delusion, arise from the way
love becomes shaped - with the symmetries become reworked through a lower level, more entropic idolatry. Values which aren't really that valuable
shoot to the fore, and all on the false premise, through the trauma-seeing eyes, that love is evil, that love seeks to swallow us up, and that my
identity and my fighting is all that matters.
But is it rational? If Omega is love, and you return to love either way, what do you think you're journey back through the minefields of
reconstruction i.e. life review, is going to show you, but the disentanglement of meaning construction that made you value such valueless things? If
the idol isn't real - isn't truthful, isn't a reflection of reality, how can anyone think - besides from the perspective of being a deluded primate
that dissociates its zoological status as an animal - as a reacting, feeling, creature, contextualized by cues, and motivated in our relations,
ineluctably, by a brain that has been shaped by historical experience?
How can anyone come to reify a process-based reality, and essentialize their self as if their self, this ego they so prize, which paradoxically they
defend in a way that will ultimately come to hurt them so much more, becuase they hurt others and will have to know that from the perspective of love,
Other's are a part of the Self, and hence, integrated into the identity structure of a person living through love?
Is idealism what happens when a person looks at a brain and see's a mere lump - a singular, and not a plural? If the deep structure could be seen, and
the neurons counted (86 billion) and supporting glia, mapped out (85 billion) - and the entire system be represented on a computer screen, would it
then not become more obvious this brain of ours is both singular and plural, and that, furthermore, it is dialectically and symmetrically a sub-system
in a larger two-person system, of a self-and-other configuration which constitutes the real unit of human reality? Is tihs not why our mind occurs in
an observer-object form? And is this observer not an emergent property of love?
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