posted on Nov, 10 2018 @ 01:30 AM
I had an unexpected dream this past weekend out of touch with the kind that I usually have and it scared me quite a lot. Now I have been able to lucid
dream for sometime now and I can usually rely on this to wake myself out of nightmares with out question I simply exert control of the dream and wake
myself out of this.
Now this night I went to bed late around 0430 and within minutes of falling asleep I found myself in a average setting sitting in my house watching
old music videos on TV, the video was It's The End Of The World by R.E.M but upon them singing "its the end of the world' the TV and turned off
giving that old school white flatline like cathode ray TVs do when they turn off. Except when this happened it was as if the entire universe itself
turned off or simply blinked out of existence.
I suddenly found myself (or at this point what i could refer to as self) surrounded by complete and utter blackness i no longer had a body but simply
my soul or some form of enrgy was all that existed i could feel no physcal presence around me nor could i sense myself yet if i still had some
semblance of my 5 senses, to say the least i could not see nor could i hear anything (think of in the most quiet of places say a senory deprivation
room you can always hear something but the quiet here was deafwning through its sheer non existence of sound) as well as this i found myself to be
suffocating i could not breathe though i tried gasping for air.
At this point i realized i must be dreaming and woke myself up into a lucid dreaming state but this is when i became truly scared as i have never been
in this state yet not in control (this did not feel like sleep paralysis as I have experienced it before and have not been affected by it like this
and usually I can pull my self out of that state), I became fully aware and started suffocating even more as every part of my being was screaming at
what seemed an endless void i tried screaming but had no mouth to do so, this suffocation i felt could not be physical but instead somehow the
suffocaton of my soul itself. I was able to wake up though as i could eventually sense some form of physicality whithin my dream and reached out for
it with my mind, and upon doing this pulled myself off the side of my bed waking me up.
It took me a moment to realize i could breathe again and that I was back in my dark bedroom, I was scared by this and went outside and sat on the
porch until about 0630 when the sun was up and I felt grounded enough in reality to return inside and go to sleep.
I decided to write this down to get it off my chest and see if anyone else has experienced the same as it was uncharteristicly frighting to me. Thanks
in advance for any respsonses or insights any of you may be able to provide.