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originally posted by: muzzleflash
I also have to be ready to show everyone who I am, to convert my mostly private life into a completely public life - like letting them see a copy of the actual posts (even though the texts shouldn't matter because TN never had jurisdiction anyways). I sorta want everyone to see the text because they'll see I'm the most reasonable, sweetest person considering that I'm dealing with a lunatic that was threatening my life and simply wanted to defuse it.
I was already thinking of sending an article/letter to various magazines, newspapers, tv news stations, and posting my story on all sorts of social media sites and trying to get people to spread it far and wide to give it more exposure.
If I play my cards right and implement a good strategy than it's plausible this could become the best thing to ever happen to me. At the same time it can also be the ultimate destruction of my existence as well.
I've been freaking out mostly though. Even me who usually can control my mind and find inner peace, I'm pretty much becoming a total wreck full of anxiety, panic, fear, etc. I'm not sure I can handle this, I've been collapsing.
I try to distract myself (by reading ATS or watching a film) but I'm continually discovering this isn't working very well.
originally posted by: TzarChasm
they say that charity is directly proportionate to guilt. i believe the same is true regarding spirituality and tragedy. synchronicity, universal love, religion and salvation, they are all coping mechanisms for dealing with the chaos we are confronted with and sometimes "punished" by. and now it becomes clear where you get the conviction that drives your faith. its your only hope in the madness you have posted about, and i dont have any interest in taking that from you. i just hope that the answers you cling to give you the strength to stand tall and remain noble in all things you say and do. dignity is not born, it is made. it is a choice, to be broken or to assemble your pieces and build a better self.
The truth behind 42 being the meaning of life, the universe and everything
In the ASCII Language (computer language), 42 is an * or "Wildcard"
The greatest computer ever built was asked what the meaning of life is and it literally told everyone in ITS language that "Life is what you make it"
and now I see, why you find such purpose in this number. it is a symbol of the only real power you have held during the course of your journey and how you have been transformed by it. i hope you will find the time to share more of your revelations.