posted on Jul, 26 2019 @ 01:25 AM
I admit I'm a little sad that no one has been reading or posting in this thread specifically, because it was one of my favorite threads to write (and
the first part as well). But... I can't really complain considering I just went through one of the most horrifying ordeals of my entire life...
I'm here now, safe for the moment, got a really bad spinal injury that will never heal, and am completely overwhelmed by tragedy, BUT - I'm Alive.
I learned some very important lessons the last 3 months.
I don't even know where to begin...
Earlier this year I was planning on creating part Ф of this trilogy but that's going way to the backburner for now, I'm sorry everyone but right now
I need to heal and recover as best as I can. I cannot do it alone either.
I always had a huge flaw with my ego but this last 3 months has taught me that I am a very flawed person. Despite my own fantasy of myself, I now
realize I am nearly helpless.
I thank God countless times everyday, especially the last 48 hours, for saving my life and giving me a little bit of time to come back and talk to all
of you again. I Hope and Pray that God will show me more Grace and Mercy and keep me here at ATS with all of you for many years to come without any
crazy disappearances like this one.
It's late and I cannot go into the story, and I don't even know *how* to go into the story yet. Goodness!!!
I Love all of you and I miss you guys/gals so much!!
I'm so thankful that I've had ATS over the years and so many of you folks here that I consider as my friends (yes even those I got into arguments
with, no matter how heated or volatile).
Hahaha! I'm Alive!!! Woohooo!!!!!
Now let's get more than 26 flags on this bad boy thread, cmon! This one was a heck of a bombshell and exceeded even my own expectations - in fact I
have no clue how I wrote this 42 / 137 stuff. I must have been possessed by some dusty old Ghosts or something. Hehehe!
Like really, I don't even know what to say right now!
Wow I'm here today posting!!! Craziness!
48 hours ago I thought I'd never make it back to ATS...
I miss this place so much! I miss all of yall and your ideas!!
Wow I am so BLESSED to be here today!!!
So many tears.... whew...
And my battles have only just begun...
I honestly really need you guys/gals now more than ever. Yall have been so important to me for all of these years and I've had so much fun interacting
here and learning from yall - and returning the favor with threads like this one.
Maybe I am a little nuts because I consider ATSers as my FAMILY, and I'll keep fighting my Heart out even though sometimes everything seems completely
impossible and lost. I know God's got me because without all these miracles I wouldn't be here right now to share these feelings with yall.
I learned a hell of a lesson about how flawed and frail I really am, and how wrong I was to think I was unstoppable, or whatever crazy arrogant BS I
used to believe... My greatest weakness and strength all wrapped into one...
I'm SO SORRY that I've been so hard to deal with all these years!! I'd just get so wrapped up in trivial things, but the last 5 years have really been
taming me... the last 3 months especially whooped my rear.
God's showing me that there is about to be Miracles all around me because I have been Blessed with all of you in my life!!
I am so so thankful!!!
I'm actually Back!! (with a broken back)