Just another stupid poem

Have you ever felt really small?

So small that you don't want
to be anything but small against everything else.

The weight of your body, the length of your arms, the ache in your knees
it's all smaller

Try to imagine how big all creation is--and you, just a little passing thought
about paying bills and shopping
green crunchy vegetables or ice cream

Many nights I lie in bed, eyes closed, and smile at how small I am
In the dark. I am pleased.

I tell those guys to f*** off again and again

It's something I carry that I can't share. It's pain I simply cannot share.

Sorrow is all I have so don't offer me a sweating light beer.

What I have to say, you don't undertstand, so just f*** off

Maybe you dreamed about it once. Dreamed about being so angry and hurt that you beat your dream to near-death and made sure they hurt too. There was red blood, and black bruises. Beat them more and more. It didn't stop. There was no restraint.

Everyone is guilty and there aren't enough dreams to fix anything.

All I can do is try to feel small and wonder where in my heart so much love comes from, before I feel fat again

a reply to: NarcolepticBuddha


Ummm...WOW...There's so much in there...It's like you reached into my experience and pulled it kicking and screaming onto the page...

I love how you captured the imagery of what it's like to feel when the world is a huge weight and there you are...trying to absorb and contain it all from the perspective of a single sand grain on an infinite beach...

How you both love with all the energy of your being...yet hate...for the pain that all that outpouring entails...wishing so damn hard that just a little somehow comes back your way once in a while...

You just held up a huge mirror...and...I saw myself reflected there in your words...

Very powerful my friend...

Altruism's are often like that...they rob the dark from the shade so that everything is laid bare...strip away the shell that we erect...and we do seem small...

Small perhaps...but never insignificant...we each have significance...


Thank you for reminding me of that...







YouSir

a reply to: NarcolepticBuddha

Great. This is just great.

Not.

a reply to: NarcolepticBuddha

Powerful stuff my friend, powerful stuff.

originally posted by: hombero
a reply to: NarcolepticBuddha

Great. This is just great.

Not.

Thank you, sincerely.

Whether I post or delete a post, I'm glad it annoys you

hello what's my name

is my poem

you really had to do this? who wants to remember all that again?

a reply to: slidebrain

metatron?

originally posted by: Damla
you really had to do this? who wants to remember all that again?

Did it for you honey baby sweet pie!

a reply to: NarcolepticBuddha


thanks but i dont want to remember it. it was a terrible night.

a reply to: Damla

Sorry lamby damla

You sound very depressed.
My advice is get up on your feet and walk around.
Just think how many things in this world you cant see with your eyes
and yet its there.
Yes we are small but so is a candle and it glows amongst a trillion suns.

a reply to: AthlonSavage

arent you bored of listening to people's conversations in their daily life?

a reply to: Damla

I don't get bored.
I listen to many things.
Eventually everyone has to face
the demons that hurt them.
We need to be positive in life and strong
as we can.