Have you ever felt really small?
So small that you don't want
to be anything but small against everything else.
The weight of your body, the length of your arms, the ache in your knees
it's all smaller
Try to imagine how big all creation is--and you, just a little passing thought
about paying bills and shopping
green crunchy vegetables or ice cream
Many nights I lie in bed, eyes closed, and smile at how small I am
In the dark. I am pleased.
I tell those guys to f*** off again and again
It's something I carry that I can't share. It's pain I simply cannot share.
Sorrow is all I have so don't offer me a sweating light beer.
What I have to say, you don't undertstand, so just f*** off
Maybe you dreamed about it once. Dreamed about being so angry and hurt that you beat your dream to near-death and made sure they hurt too. There was
red blood, and black bruises. Beat them more and more. It didn't stop. There was no restraint.
Everyone is guilty and there aren't enough dreams to fix anything.
All I can do is try to feel small and wonder where in my heart so much love comes from, before I feel fat again
edit on 27-9-2018 by NarcolepticBuddha because: (no reason given)