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originally posted by: Romanov
2- I can't "see", but I can easily "hear" things in my imagination, especially music, and even complex ones, like symphonies. If I want, I can hear one of Beethoven' symphonies that I know better (like the 5th or the 9th) in my imagination any time. Most of the time it is not very clear and very different from really listening, but sometimes it is almost real (usually happens spontaneously, and is quite striking due to being very close to the real thing).
Your reaction will probably mirror mine and the hundreds before me: you are stunned that your mind works so different and feel an overwhelming sadness for several days that you have been missing out on a large part of the human experience. I cried for three days straight. Don’t carry the sadness, there is beauty in the differences of how you experience life and consciousness:
originally posted by: KilgoreTrout
Not sure, but I do wonder, you say that your dreams are visually bland, how are they in terms of sound? I ask because my dreams are visually quite splendid, but kind of quiet most of the time...my "bad" dreams are noisy, that's part of what makes them bad.
Exactly, some times I have dream only with music, or noise. Some very beautiful, a few times scary, like screams (sometimes I hear voices screaming my name even when awake, when I was a kid or a teenager it was more common) or some music like marches.edit on 16-9-2018 by Romanov because: (no reason given)
originally posted by: Romanov
Exactly, some times I have dream only with music, or noise. Some very beautiful, a few times scary, like screams (sometimes I hear voices screaming my name even when awake, when I was a kid or a teenager it was more common) or some music like marches.
originally posted by: WuChang
a reply to: Justshrug
First thank you for shearing your experience
I would very strongly recommend you contacting Jack Kornfeild. He holds a Ph.D. in clinical psychology but he is also a Buddhist monk and a master in spiritual meditation. He is not a "guru" and his approach is both deeply spiritual but also scientific. There is a real benefit of doing meditation but you must also avoid being misguided by experience that can lead you in a wrong path. He is not a dogmatic person, does not try to convert you to any religious endeavour and really can help find a proper road towards spiritual growth. I think you should first try to contact him via email.
He does make a living from his teaching, but he is honest about it. I attended some of his retreats on the east coast. I have travelled in South Asia and China and I can tell you that he is the real thing.
I sincerely hope you can find some guidance
originally posted by: Justshrug
originally posted by: CainHarmbank
A few times I hear a voice yelling some cryptic phrase at me... like I'm supposed to understand what the hell they're talking about...
Sometimes a face will form...
An image of a wall was a recent vision...
But most of the time I just see patches of colors, and the orb flickering on and off... like a cell phone charging... And then I fall asleep...
I have never heard a voice/sound/song/whisper anything. I can't imagine what that would be like, im sure it would completely freak me out. How often do you hear a 'voice' or something like a third party speaking to you?
originally posted by: SourcePage
to meditate you must stop visualising entirely. Never ever ever visualise anything as long as you live. Visualising is a disease. Something that is very dangerous & holds you in illusion. God takes you to what seems similar to the dark side of the moon & you see faint objects that do not want to be held & do have clarity when they go away from you. This is God's way. Or The Angel of God's way. Of telling you that On Your Own Back, right behind you, there is an angel of God that goes into hiding when it comes to the earth & remains as a indistinct nothing right at back of you & observes you, & it is not allowed to be held by you & for you to do so would be deadly to it & to yourself, for you both would be burned like when touching fire & hot ice, & yet when the angel leaves you it becomes its true self again & is quite clear & distinct from the background around it. I am sorry for not being more clear.
Anyway everyone has an angel right behind them. In The Book Of Revelations the guy is in the spirit (astral world) & he turns around & The Angel of God is right behind him. That is what everyone on earth can experience if they want to. But anyway you are being taught that there are stars in the place where man can see nothing & those stars watch your mind & know when you try to grab them, & they avoid being handled by you. It is the basic lesson that you need to learn before you can learn more. The angels are very vulnerable. You must never try to hold them. Ever. They will tell you when it is safe to do so. When Christ appeared after His crucifixion He told people not to touch Him. It's a similar thing that all angels of God require until the conditions are right.
Anyway I am wasting my time talking to humans as usual. They all learn at their own speed & cannot learn from other people unless the other people repeat what they already know.
I just want to say that you should be happy that your mind cannot visualise things. Because now you have a clear mind & can let God do the visuals instead. Just watch the clear mind & let God do everything. never try to reach out & grab a hold of things as you have been trying to do. Just observe & let God start teaching you. I've seen many cases where God starts manifesting visions to teach people lessons, & the people get emotional & try to reach out with their minds & interact with the spiritual lessons. This always makes God angry because it's like a child trying to grab hold of toys on a computer screen. It is just a visual lesson that seems very real. So just remain where you are, do not reach out or try to grab or control what you are seeing, remain still & empty of thought, & just observe what happens next. When you learn that then God or The Angel of God will see you are ready to be taught much more.
Once again, visualising things is wrong & must be completely refrained from as long as one lives. Never ever do it. Ever. Only morons do that.