posted on Jul, 24 2018 @ 04:44 PM
For what passion, might one withstand
The horrors known in life, as man?
For what noble glory wrought
Might one, unknown, give them self to rot?
To search, through lengthening and weary days, for tones of truth echoing beyond the grave?
Such a thing, it seems to me,
Might truly, so foolish be:
To live life as in a dream-
Wake them not, they slumber in peace;
Their hearts entrenched, lest they know pain,
Their eyes seeing only what their minds ordain.
If only! I had such a thought
As to see pain and anguish not!
Alas, sorrowful are my days
Through which I stumble in a haze.
Could it be, I simply forgot?
That which blazes in my soul, so hot?
One would think that a burning brand
So placed would cause one to stand-
But I fall as if through sand;
Yearning only for a solid and simple land
In which I might rest
At truth and beauty's behest.
At one with a soul and purpose, once held
Out of reach of even a soulful leap.
I have not the bliss of ignorance to keep,
Sorrows banished to the realm of sleep;
And Alas, I wonder, I weep, I question:
What fate leads one to be so destined?
As to be, in flesh, so invested?
For what purposes might one willingly endure,
The lashes of life, many, swift and sure?
Surely, in gold it must be wrought,
A priceless treasure to be so sought.
If only I had but a peek- a glimpse- a gander,
Of that for which my soul meanders.
Some token, like that of a maiden fair,
For which I might ride into battle dreaming of her hair.
But alas I am set adrift
With nothing more than an ephemeral glimpse;
Hard won, with a mind weeping and torn,
I rise and fall in a tempestuous heart, forlorn.
On the sea of life I ride,
I cast for inspiration and, inside,
I find it, when I am so lucky
I pull words from the depths, so mucky.
At times my vision is so clear,
That through the gloom I can peer.
At others, the murkiness of my heart
Keeps me from practicing my art.
Long I have blamed an enemy, a shadow,
Corrupted of virtue, untamed sorrow.
But I've been fighting only myself
Thusly split, its so hard to delve
Inside to find the reasons why
It's so hard for me to be alive