posted on Jul, 19 2018 @ 11:50 PM
Well I'm trying to provoke thought and not diabolical glee so much. It's really about discovering that darkness within you usually avoid. I myself
like to put my head light on and explore what's hiding there in the hideous guise it is and investigate. You might find that instead of fearing your
own devils and grotesque ideation, there is much information to be unraveled. It exposes the origins of a world you were born into and affected by
without the direct created control. Basically it's not your fault for darkness within that frightens you- it's the original sin of mankind. We got
here together and we share the same common nerve. That's why we all mostly laugh at the same twisted things. Laughter is acknowledging truth for
others candid and honest thinking. The very darkness we hide is exposed with laughter.
It's something we relate to feeling and thinking subconsciously at one time or another.
After all we are the same species and world.
You ever just get sick of this age old battle of light and dark turmoil within the soul?
Oh...wouldn't it be nice if all the Lost Gods of this Earth could simply meet
in the middle with radical self acceptance. One Big Dysfuntional Family and you know...
We might be better to each other if we could accept what simply is and not what should be!
So...wars of Hell to win dead bodies and ashes of everyones' labors'
and loves weren't reduced to ashes for future generations.
Oh...the holy matrimony of science and spirit if only could equal direction to find a savior
Within and the Power Thereof to Stop it All...
Will blind madness, megalomania, meltdown be averted for a peace...
When are people going to want and need to win their minds
and intelligence back from programming?
I don't care if I die in the subjugated cull, I've already died technically 2 times in
my life so far and I know how it goes and where and what my existence is all
I've already been through the Lake of Fire.
My brain and central nervous system...the real purge.
I wouldn't wish it on anyone but it was exacted upon me by powers of
statutes and it lasted years....
Enjoying or Finding the Love within to accept the self finally and be liberated from bondage. The one so intrinsically twisted and wrapped
in all feeling and emotions is who I need to expose.
Lately I've been thinking whether or not I can attract success with creations (i.e-writing,art etc.) of mine, that my health with my whole
self is most important. I think the very persistence and act whether I care for what I'm creating or not is still very beneficial to myself and all
artists if you really take some time to examine the psychological effects.
These psychological effects are important as a habitual means of keeping the soul churning and not becoming stagnant. The mind does affect the body as
it is inside the body and uses the same system. In return the pain of your body reports back to the mind it's feelings/emotions and finally choices.
Keeping one's overall self more happy and content is targeting well being and better choices for health.
This is what I've been focused on lately in hard times when some people have so much materially in life but their mood and health can be so
horrible they can't even truly enjoy it that much. No one has any wealth at all if their lives are not enjoyable and worth living! Though healthy
activity and efforts for self esteem to create a better life are wonderful, how much you recieve or have is not! You have as much as you think you do
based on internal well being about who you are and the condition of your soul. Materialism doesn't reflect how well someone is doing at all, on the
other hand we still need enough! Nothing More sometimes than adequate and sufficiently taking exactly what someone requires is truly all this is
Perhaps real success is not well defined in society in the most realistic way. I believe through media, movies etc.. people are conditioned to
believe in destination happiness, the future where all is well! I'm not even sure what societal norms/ respectability is anymore when this perception
of values differs for all nearly 7 billion on this planet.
I know by now that my mental and physical health is more important to me than losing it for great monetary gain! I know it will
never make me any happier in my life for others collecting on my success, they don't really even give quite a # about all the great things I do now.
For exactly the same reason I write as the oppositional view, the others would say the opposite end of this argument as lazy, childish notions of
entitlement and non recognized efforts will go unnoticed and unrewarded by society!!
Besides it doesn't make anyone else a happier person but for a moment if I do monetarily well and then what is the nature of the people
collecting around my success then anyways? Are they really there now for the fact I have been such an awesome person doing great things or am I
favorable now among monetary elitism! The very ones who control economies and are linked to the money market and banking?
So it seems I would be worth something then to people and it would be materialism and how much money I can make people and give away.
Everybody wants to gather around a honey pot but no one wants to create the honey. Furthermore being the opposition of that economic world that
controls and fools many out of self respect and self worth as it's enough to be a human being.
It truly is enough to exist in this world as someone who gives effort and aids the rest of humanity with a function and helping out is never
a burden! It shouldn't matter how much help you can provide because that is the line which we cross into a slavery system as old as babylon and the
fall of atlantis. Besides we have so much excess and devastation as over developed nations with too much crime, grime and desolate depairity. Enough
is enough and I mean focus, even poor people in the United States and Developed Countries have a whole lot more compared to others. I'm focused on a
whole lot more anymore these days than my own superior comfort level.
I don't mean to Berate anyone that has worked hard for what they have and gone after a dream at all, that's not my intention. By all means, I
would never want to take away from all of life's joys and pleasures that people are driven to possess. These are the very things that gives us
purpose for living and a design for motivation in our days, weeks and years! I'm only writing this as my own revelation on how capitalism can be
slavery and a truly better state of the union and real democracy is concerned for a happier society. If feelings/emotions and pain are powerful
communicators within and of our entire selves than you have to listen to my reason and question reality.
I believe the purpose in life is to feel better and be honest about how you really feel authentically within. Lying to others with
your life despite honestly really feeling inner success is living for vanity. Vanity is absolutely empty and devoid of happiness, love and light-
it's about how others perceive you. If that is the people you are worried about and they feel the same of you in a hyper competitive spirit, then
that is truly, a wasted life!
I feel each to their own life.