posted on Feb, 23 2005 @ 10:04 PM
A FIRE AT SEA
what is to give light
must endure burning."Victor Frankl"
one does not have to display such as a sitting budhist in meditation to need to be/reflect enlightenment..
I may have seemed hot..got me..i am usually the calmest one..been told over and over that i am more evolved..thou for some reason i feel so less
i should probably stop writting on these sites..because i am non conforming in nature and out of context....
i use to be a good writter then i had to take english class and the structure,properness destroyed it..i used to be a great artist on paper with paint
etc.then i had to take 8 grade art..this is how you do it..and it destroyed it for me..
and so on and so on..
please forgive me for all the above..even people on their way to illumination consciously and sub..need to face demons..that is nature..white black
cant have one with out the other..
in ways i wish i could become a free mason etc..thou just like school i feel it would be a waste of time for me...i failed evry grade of school..it
bored the heck out of me...i would go to a tutor for 2 weeks out of the summers and ace my test..
nature and all the great people i have met as my dream unfolds has been the best teacher to me...and also my subconscious..it just seems to know
things..and once i can ask the question the answer is delivered in some way.my awreness is great,thou not so great that i am blinded...been there.
living in a cabin on top of a mtn with no roads electric etc.. for a winter taught me alot as well.....also international prominent people,goverment
scientist..shamans ,people that seemed like gods etc etc.
i have this innate knowledge with in me..
and am trying to put it in words..and numbers etc...
i am just trying to figure out why i have these..natural powers available..i dont look at them as being super...powers..
i feel we all have this,what i have..thou all we have been taught and shown and all that we see and do today just pulls us away from it..
and in a way..really a big way..i feel that is a great thing..knowing that some things are secret..and for a very good reason...it scares me and not
much scares me..with all i know etc..you would think i would be krazy..maybe you think i am..but thats ok.i dont care...but it would scare me if the
many people understood some things differnently,,,it would be great if we could all come from the heart fully first..
yrs ago,i asked this man,who was quiet and seemed a little krazy..the answer to something that was bugging me about something great..this man had some
great knowledge with in him..he spoke to me only in ridules and told me that when i am ready to understand them,then i would be ready..
i wanted an answer there..he said i seemed like a very gooood person,thou how do you know you would do good with some knowledge..
i eventually figured it out by accident.. and i was in awe..this knowledge i dont use..well to a certain extent i do..but we all do on some level..
thou i dont really use it..for i need to put it in words i feel...and then my nonconforming side says..words are unecessary..somethings are just
anyways,i dont know what i just said above,i hope it is somewhat sensible..
ok now i will zip my lips from now on
i am usually most quiet..and dont usually ever complain..i am tired of all the people complain'n about the time it is 7 times in an hour..and who did
what to who and so on an so forth..and people like me who just challenge everything..inside and out
better yet i will stich my lips
thank you for being instrumental
AUM FROM THE HEART
hey does anyone aum..i hear it an awful lot sounding like ohm...thou in ancient times in sounded like aum.
& for some time focus on the heart as if it had wings for some time,before middle eye
yada yada..it probably means nothing to you..
i know nothing really.i make all this up..as i go.
just like feeling as if i a, an ancient soul from wales...i dont know why that keeps coming to me...i know nothing of wales and its history..i do like
leaving the text
with greenmans ramble..ok slates wiped clean