Do the Freemasons preserve arcane mystical and occult knowledge in their rituals?, page 18

yes, Tamahu, the backpacking trip most certainly made some space in my mind. It has made me slow down considerably. I have given myself the time to practice art everday, to journal, take short hikes, and to research things of interest..such as mysteries,freemasonry/masons, secret societies and speaking of using words..I just seen a workshop on 20 words that will change your world/the way you come across/people see us....
I have even been considering meditation once again, though I do wonder If I really need it, my waking life is like a meditation..I meditated everyday for many years when I was younger with some extrordinary groups of people..until I started to visulize outcomes of situations that were happening before me from time to time and a fire burned in my solar plexus and an unbending focus in a relaxed state..maybe the spirit /through me made these outcomes reality,which I just humbly accepted without question.,many other strange/out of the ordinary things have also and allways occured in my life with me,around me etc..
And one day my uncle who worked for the CIA had warned me against meditation..and I laughed at him,though at the near future I stopped meditating on a horizontal level and became a very creative individual working with nature and have done great things for the people in my community..
So that is why I am here at times,curious of the mysteries of the past/present..wanting to know why I am the way I am..why am I different and allways have been since a child..why do these things happen

one question has been and got me curious of meditation/mysteries , etc. was/is why did I grow up having out of body experiences,flying around my neighborhood watching my friends play..and as I grew older some close friends actually thought they seen me next to them for a momment..funny thing was in my mind,I was there..I imagined I was and then told SO.

aLSO I have allways believed in jesus,but not the story told to us in religion class and at the age of 7 I deeply questioned the nuns and priest.I have allways gone against the grain to some extent.

As I grew older I began to wonder what else can I do..such as live forever..If I was aware of my death could I manipulate it..

And when I meditated I wondered why did I allways vibrate..maybe it was one of the serpents rising?kundulini...why did people allways say to me it looked as if you were about ready to levitate when meditating..and so much more..

so that is why I found myself on these forums..to see what I can learn about myself/why this is all happening to me...which I still have not discovered though I am opening up to learning about myself and the world around me..mostly what we can not see.

ok,before I loose myself in my writting or any one who may be trying to follow me,I shall end my babble. and once again thank you

? can anyone try to become a freemason,does one need to be invited,have special blood,education,money?

there is a large freemason temple in the city of Troy ny. close by..since a young child looking at it as I go by has allways held my curiosity.

???one more thing..why such a question as the one in this forum...was it a non freemason who opened this up..