posted on Jul, 13 2018 @ 07:38 AM
originally posted by: randyvs
a reply to: Skorpiogurl
Okay maybe it was an outrageous leap to
assume if you're pissed at God you must
have a reason. Hey my bad.
All bullshlt aside, can you explain how it
would make sense to blame God?
Finally I offer an apology. It was very
Impolite of me not to offer my thoughts
and condolence to you out front and foremost
in this difficult time. That was very trashy of me.
So listen, no worries. I didn't post this with the intention of soliciting sympathy or condolences. I had to put it out in the universe somewhere to
get it out of my head. I do appreciate the support so thank you very much. Not trashy at all.
I don't "blame" God. I am not one of those people who goes around blaming God for all the bad in the world but never thanking him for all the good. I
believe in free will and universal balance and all that good stuff!
When I say I am angry at God I mean who else am I going to be angry with. My anger isn't blame, my anger is simply general anger for losing someone
who I loved and will miss. My anger comes from missing her and knowing that I'll have days, months and even years of facing times when I'll wish she
was still around to do things with, to talk too, to laugh with, to share memories of our child-hood with. I am "directing" my anger at God because
he's my rock, he's my support, he allows me to shoot my anger at him so that I don't put it where it doesn't belong, like on myself or on my spouse or
on my friends or other family members. And it's not just anger, it's all of the emotions that go along with losing someone. I use God to put away my
anger, sadness, hopelessness, loneliness and finally acceptance. I also thank and praise God for my joy, love, happiness, abilities, achievements and
opportunities. God takes on my anger and is a healthy outlet for me, and a healthy alternative. In other words, I could go out and be rude and/or yell
and scream at someone but instead of hurting another being I can yell and scream at God. He's okay with that. In the end I know he still loves me and
will give me a sign which will allow me to move on with my life in a positive manner, as he intended.
Jeez... does any of what I said up there make sense? I'm not sure quite how to explain it.
I guess what I'm saying is the anger isn't like specific "God I'm pissed at you for taking away my sister". My anger is general like "God I'm so
upset and angry about losing my sister so please help me to get it all out..." and I have faith that he will, eventually.