posted on May, 30 2018 @ 11:24 PM
a reply to: tadaman
I'm a 23 year old man, from a broken household, but loved by many. How to receive the love? I've never quite figured out. I have my demons. I've
crossed into world's unknown to probably every member here on ATS. I've done things I'm not proud of, that have led myself and others down a road of
destruction, some of which never returned. I think about my decisions every day, and have come to terms with myself that in order to transcend I have
to reverse all of the evil in my life with love. I left my home state 4 years ago on a journey of enlightenment, left everyone behind, family,
friends, and a significant other. I gave no explanation prior to my absence, and still have yet to do so. I started fresh on the other side of the
country, because anything related to my past makes me grieve. People now a days only know me for my present, and not my past. They appreciate my
presence, I uplift others any chance I get, I'll help carry groceries for a stranger, I'll pick up a hitch hiker and deliver him/her to there
destination, and every thanksgiving I eat dinner with somebody that is homeless, here their story, and enjoy their company as much as they enjoy my
kind gesture. I am able to feel people's emotions whether I choose to or not, I know when someone's hurting, I know when someone's unsure, I know when
someone's scared, and my only goal in life is to create a comfort zone for anyone feeling these ways. Some view my approach as creepy, or insincere
because of how the world is these days, and it hurts me that people think there's nothing and no one genuine anymore. I will continue my new life the
same way I have been, which is enriching others around me, appreciating any and everything living, and trying to change the world one person and one
interaction at a time.
Thank you for this post, I don't talk about myself much, I may seem like I have it all figured out in my posts if you've ever seen them, but I'm still
trying to glue back the pieces of my once broken self, one day at a time.
Peace, Love, and Blessings to all of you!
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