posted on May, 16 2018 @ 03:59 PM
I have always been someone deeply in touch with my feelings, and in that of others. I've always been deeply in touch with the Universe, and what i
like to call "Spirit".. I get a vibe about something happening, about something being important, or wrong. And i am typically always spot on. I will
have dreams that have a tendency to become a reality, and i am left wishing i could just turn it all off. I also have a tendency for ignoring those
gut feelings i get when I've met someone, or when i think I'm with the right one. I ignore the warning signs, and end up getting horribly hurt from
it. But there has come a time in my life, where I've met someone who's challenged absolutely everything..
Who's taken my heart like it was created with his name stamped on it. I tried to fight what i felt for him, tried to ignore that something was
there.. pulling me into him. But it took me over, and it wrapped me up in such a way i had no will to leave, no will to be separate from the feeling.
I wanted what he gave me in the bluntest, and most raw form possible. And that PULL.. it took us both over. It tossed us around like the crashing
waves in an ocean storm. And then we met with the shore, hoping it could offer us peace. But it brought doubt, fear, sadness, and relentless hardship.
So here we are, cold, feeling broken, and wandering on an island hoping to find some form of escape from the madness around us. The pain from our past
had creeped in, and stole away our faith, did it's best to snuff out our flame, and make us give up. But a tiny flicker remains, enough.. if given
the opportunity, to take town this forest of darkness, to destroy everything in its path, and create a new ground for change. The one we've been
So this is my cry for help.. My prayer to the heavens, my SOS to the Universe. Whatever magic it was that brought us together, let there be the same
magic to keep us together, let it be enough to fight this hell, and to overcome the overwhelming emotions that have sought to end us. For i have never
loved a soul with more conviction, and more beauty than i do him. I have never felt this comfortable, this flow of perfection, and ease of love than
with him, i have never felt more at HOME. And he is just that.. home. I wish more than anything that this distance in between us could fade away, with
all the pain left over from a broken past. I wish we could run into each others arms, that our lips could be met together once again, and we'd be
reminded of why we've fought so bloody hard to make this love into something better than we've ever had..
We are only human, and in our human forms we are vulnerable, and open to those inner demons having the ability to break us down. But within our flaws,
our mistakes, and our insecurities lies strength, and courage, and will power. We are made of star dust.. the Universe is inside of US. So why the
hell are we letting that which we fear turn us into something less than we are capable of being? why are we allowing it to determine how, and whom,
and when we should love? LOVE cannot be measured by time, or by reason. It happens because it is meant to, to teach us what we deserve, and what we
don't. And sometimes.. SOMETIMES, something comes along that SHAKES us up, and WAKES us up, and it does so to show us anything is possible when we
give it that opportunity to be so. And so here i am, tears streaming down my face, and hands shaking to put my wild emotions into words to explain how
i feel, and explain that love isn't always how we have thought it to be. It is not meant to merely comfort us.. but to give us what we need to become
a better version of ourselves. And that is exactly what he does for me.. He challenges me to reach down into this deep dark abyss, and kill the
monsters that threaten to dim my light. He challenges me to love my depths, as i love his. And to let him love me with every tattered piece of his
wings to which he carries me. So you see, This man.. this incredible human full of wisdom, strength, passion, and fire is etched into my core. And i
could not take him out if i tried, nor would i ever want to. This is my cry that he sees.. my cry that he hears so that he may know.. despite these
flaws i carry within, despite the ones that show, and despite the darkness that tries to swallow us whole. I hold a love for him greater than ANY evil
we face, greater than any trail, or any obstacle. And i hope.. with all that is left in me to hope with.. That the Universe will be on our side.. to
get us to the top of this mountain, so that we may embrace that life that has always been there, eagerly awaiting to meet us, and bring us HOME!
-Pearl (For the Man i love, the man who's heart is and always will be.. my home.)
"True Love is- Patiently awaiting for its arrival, having the wisdom to see it when it is there, the courage to grasp ahold of it, and the
strength to never let it go."