posted on Apr, 19 2018 @ 09:28 PM
I'm feeling really bad about something I've done to some people I know. It will take a short story to tell you about it, but I'd like your advice
on how to handle the situation I've put myself in.
A couple months ago I hurt my rib with no apparent cause. I do pretty strenuous work, but the rib started hurting after lunch, not after doing
something immediately before. The pain was bad and wouldn't go away. I went to the local Dr and he said I had pulled a muscle from coughing too hard.
Then a couple days later I got a call from his office saying they made me an appointment at the hospital.
I went to the hospital and had some tests done and they didn't rell me much, just set a date a couple days later to return. When I went back, they
told me there was a chance that I had a pretty serious problem with the tendons in my body. I can't remember the exact name of it, but it's where
tendons tear loose from the bone with little reason. They said there were places over my body where there was evidence of this happening. I thought it
was just because the type of work I do leaves me sore. Anyway, they wanted me to return for a few days at a time over a couple week period to do more
tests and physical workouts to figure it out.
This really worried me, I'm not old, but I'm no spring chicken anymore either. I'm single and didn't have anyone really close to me to talk to
about it and I didn't want any of my "Bar Friends" or co-workers to think there is something wrong with me and give me some sort of stigma. I
started drinking a little more than I should and figured out a story to tell.
It started by telling a co-worker that I had to take a couple weeks off to go help my brother out of state. The next thing I know, I was telling some
people that I was going on vacation for a couple weeks. It's strange, but saying I was going on vacation made me feel like I didn't have as much to
worry about. I'm somewhat ashamed because I didn't think about how lying to these people like this might make them feel.
There are 2 people who I trust and told them the truth about what was going on with me. Turns out, I couldn't trust one and she told someone who told
someone, who told someone, etc.
Now, I did feel bad about telling the lie before she told others, but now I feel really guilty and depressed over it. I didn't want to hurt anyone, I
wasn't thinking of anyone other than myself at the time.
When I go home, I want to tell them the truth, but I'm not sure how to tell them sorry or how to respond to them if they call me a liar or try to
treat me like crap over it. You have any ideas to help me with this? I'd appreciate it.